tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7581125896717558602024-02-08T00:17:32.306-06:00The Anonymous Adventures of UsThese are the anonymous adventures of M.A. Smith and her husband, Ace. Join them as they live their lives and report back most of the details.MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.comBlogger1014125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-17562638456702700352018-11-12T20:01:00.001-06:002018-11-12T20:01:34.008-06:00Not So Much Drifting as Trying to Find the ShoreToday has been, on the whole, not a bad day. At least, not objectively. And yet, I am floundering in depression, mostly because before today (or at least last night), I didn't realize I was in depression.
It started, I think, with a call about having to go do a random drug test and breathalyzer. Neither of these were problematic from the stand point of me worrying about not passing. I don't MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-87245335459467606432018-10-21T22:30:00.002-05:002018-10-21T22:30:55.852-05:00A Wrinkle in TimeAce and I watched A Wrinkle in Time this evening. And now I want to talk about it.
It seems that Meg is depressed. Which might be why she doesn't care that she doesn't really seem to have friends. But, as Mrs. Who tells her, "The wound is the place where the light enters you." (Original quote by Rumi.) And a vast majority of the movie is Meg dealing with her wound.
Along the way, she has to MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-81140101011490589512018-08-27T21:39:00.000-05:002018-08-27T21:39:28.361-05:00Tiny LivingI admit that while I generally try to not judge people, I can't quite help but wonder about people who decide to live in tiny homes. The people who, willingly, decide that living in 134-ish square feet is for them. I wonder if they realize how difficult it will be before they start.
I live in a truck cab, so I know tiny living. 134 square feet would actually be an upgrade for Ace and I. We have MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-53767477241426203392017-08-13T18:53:00.002-05:002017-08-13T18:53:57.040-05:00Carrying OnLately, I've been reading ebooks from the library system like it's going out of style. I found that I can, when we have down time, read like crazy and enjoy myself and I am re-finding my love of reading (that wasn't really lost, just slightly misplaced).
Currently, I am reading Carry On, Warrior by Glennon Doyle Melton. It is beautiful and brutal. My heart soars and my heart aches with some of MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-32129168655247445262017-05-25T22:28:00.002-05:002017-05-25T22:28:46.992-05:00Double StandardsI know that in my last post I was wondering what women were protesting on International Women's Day, (I never have found out.) and this post is probably part of the answer.
I am tired of the double standards for women. I am tired of the implication in the world that I am never enough if I try to please the masses. There is no right weight or clothing style or whatever to keep me from being a MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-74464010772404495762017-03-08T23:54:00.000-06:002017-03-08T23:54:01.330-06:00International Woman's DayTo start off, I want to proclaim that I am for women. I am for men. I am for equality among genders. And I'm happy to spend a day, a week, a month, a year, a lifetime dedicated to honoring women in history. We should honor all the people who have made advances in things and made our lives better. If they only made one life better, it's enough for us to celebrate their life.
Having said that, MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-23902666848066098972017-01-27T23:15:00.000-06:002017-01-27T23:15:04.702-06:00Grieving Is Not a 5 Step ProcessToday, I want to talk about grief. Not for any particular reason, other than it has been on my mind.
There has been some popular idea, put on tv and in movies, that grief is a 5 step process and once you go through those steps, you will have successfully grieved. And it's based on a misunderstanding of what that 5 step process was about. It is the steps someone who is dying goes through. After MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-40676384372184000582016-11-20T21:33:00.001-06:002016-11-20T21:33:37.306-06:00The GiverA while back (earlier this year, I think, but my memory is being weirdly random about time right now), I read the book The Giver. I then read most of it to Ace out loud while he drove. And we had to keep stopping while I was reading to talk about the book.
If you haven't read it, I do recommend it. It's about a boy named Jonas who lives in a controlled community. He turns 12 and is given his jobMA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-5537651975405151422016-11-09T21:53:00.001-06:002016-11-09T21:53:11.762-06:00With Regards to the Future PresidentI am not a particularly political person. Not because I don't see the importance, but I can only devote so much of my time to things that I have little to no influence over. Since I have very little influence in politics, it tends to be something I mostly ignore when it's not affecting me personally. I just have too many other things (that are more important to me) to do.
That said, here are my MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-83478857459750078402016-11-07T21:36:00.002-06:002016-11-07T21:36:43.246-06:00RepresentationI was looking at an article earlier about the importance of representation (of any group beyond just white people, specifically white males). And it was interesting, because the latest Star Wars movie was mentioned multiple times. There was a picture of a boy holding a Finn doll. There was a mention of the fact that they didn't write Finn or Rey as any specific skin color, but they were careful MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-87555043306582276412016-10-26T18:14:00.001-05:002016-10-26T18:14:29.147-05:00The Cyclical Nature of Trucking (Problems)One of the weirdest parts about living on a truck is how often the same problem pops up on different trucks. The truck we are currently inhabiting, we've been living on for 2 weeks (and a night). In that 2 weeks, we've had problems pop up that have needed to be fixed (which is sad, in that 2 weeks isn't a long time, but this truck had nearly half a million miles on it when we moved in).
Today weMA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-85288563709855866192016-10-20T01:00:00.001-05:002016-10-20T01:00:56.534-05:00The Hunger GamesI've watched the first Hunger Games movie, and I started reading the book while visiting a friend a few years ago, but I didn't get to finish reading the book then. I know, generally, what's going to happen.
But it's occurred to me that Suzanne Collins has done a wonderful job of presenting a limited point of view by telling us the story just from Katniss' view point. Katniss does not know what MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-16767279501403544262016-10-06T22:12:00.000-05:002016-10-06T22:12:46.250-05:00INFJI have taken the MBTI test more than once in my life. It usually has been varied on what letters it gives me based on how I'm thinking/feeling that day. Except the I for introverted. I have always been an I, which does not surprise me in the least. I've joked about becoming a hermit, because I am generally good with staying home most of the time. I don't really get cabin fever unless I can't MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-30552850632557168922016-10-01T01:13:00.000-05:002016-10-01T01:13:01.183-05:00Mr. Darcy and Ms. BennetI watched through The Lizzie Bennet Diaries this week. I blew through them videos for the main story in two days, and today (day 3) I watched all of the supporting videos. If you haven't seen them and liked Pride and Prejudice, I suggest you go watch them on YouTube. There are 100 episodes of the Diaries, with 10 Q&A videos, 2 epilogue videos, and 33 videos from Lydia Bennet's point of view. TheyMA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-75780846737742545032016-09-12T20:42:00.001-05:002016-09-12T20:42:57.017-05:00VulnerabilityI have been watching some Ted Talks lately. Brené Brown has a couple of them, talking about vulnerability. And Glennon Doyle Melton talked about her past, sharing her vulnerability.
And it amazes me how much people try to numb themselves. Not that I don't understand the desire. I've felt those scary lows. Deeply. Intimately. And I know how bad they hurt and how much you start wondering if this MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-4523620101184925012016-09-11T19:08:00.000-05:002016-09-11T19:08:18.813-05:00Let's Be Honest HereNote: I haven't posted in forever, I know. I don't even know what I last wrote about, and I know at one point I promised funny stories about trucking. This is not that post. I don't know if that post will ever exist, because sometimes that is how my life goes. I have these good intentions, and then other things become urgent and important (not the same thing, by the way) and they take over MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-91759995459681918522015-02-06T18:44:00.000-06:002015-02-06T18:44:13.762-06:00A Modest PostToday, I'm going to talk about modesty. Which almost makes me want to roll my eyes because why is this something to have to write about?
(I will post weird stories from the road sometime... I'm just not sure when.)
Recently (meaning in the last two weeks), I've read two different blog posts and an article on modesty. The article was about one of the blog posts. They were all fairly reasonable MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-80493325736283631952014-09-29T08:47:00.000-05:002014-09-29T08:47:05.408-05:00Spam Is Sometimes HilariousFirst, without comment, the spam email.
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MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-39290498857789549452014-09-23T22:43:00.000-05:002014-09-23T22:43:29.769-05:00Random Thoughts No One Else Probably Cares AboutI still suck at this posting more than once in a blue moon thing. Sorry. I hadn't quite realized how long it had been since I had posted.
Since I don't really have much in the way of coherent thoughts right now, here is a random list of what is on my mind.
1. Some people are really good at circumventing the rules. Sometimes it's impressive. Sometimes it's bad. (Ace is reading me a follow up MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-52920267895473403982014-08-12T22:29:00.000-05:002014-08-12T22:29:43.279-05:00Suicide Is Hardly PainlessI know it's been forever since I last posted. Sorry about that. Things have changed some, and I'm now driving (at least sometimes) and that has lead to being more tired and less inclined to write. I'm also less inclined to read as much. It's making me sad. That, however, is not the point of this post.
I want to talk about my theory of suicide. (Robin Williams is still having a profound effect. MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-4272123344573788252014-02-23T16:15:00.000-06:002014-02-23T16:15:02.297-06:00I Have Some Things to SayDear World,
You do not get to define me. I am much more than your limited views of me would suggest. I am not just anything, except for just me.
Because you do not know me, you cannot tell me that I can't have problems because I am a white woman. You cannot tell me that I cannot have problems just because I don't have children to figure out how to feed. Life is hardly ever as simple as outward MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-20487360868370554402014-02-05T17:34:00.001-06:002014-02-05T17:34:05.697-06:00Exhausted RamblingI would love to say that things are going swimmingly over here. They are going pretty well, but today has been long and I'm tired and sore and cold (Pennsylvania is cold in February, especially right after a snow storm, spread the news).
Ace got a load today that we drove 20 miles, maybe? Before he got 5 miles from the shipper, we got a call that he needed to head back. But we had to wait, MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-22931896835151788182014-02-01T00:22:00.002-06:002014-02-01T00:22:42.153-06:00Literary Tattoos on the BrainI've been fascinated with literary tattoos lately. And this is unsurprising, seeing as I am usually reading several books at once and stories with meaning stick with me and if I enjoy (or don't absolutely hate) getting tattoos, I may consider one someday.
I, somewhat recently, read a book about literary tattoos. Mostly it was looking at pictures of tattoos, but still. It was fascinating. Some MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-72942649049094070382014-01-24T16:13:00.002-06:002014-01-24T16:13:37.431-06:00ThankfulOne of the things Gretchen Rubin wrote about in The Happiness Project was being grateful. Between that and the book Ace and I are reading about marriage (not the best book as we keep disagreeing with things said in it and our marriage is doing quite well, thank you), I have been thinking about how much I am grateful for how good a husband Ace is.
And they have caused me to reflect that I say "MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-758112589671755860.post-43823952608975797532014-01-23T08:06:00.001-06:002014-01-23T08:06:11.512-06:00Happiness Is...I am currently reading The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin (along with 2 other books that I'm reading out loud to Ace as he drives and we're talking about). And it's got me thinking about what I can do to appreciate my life more as it stands.
I started reading it right now because there are several people's blogs talking about depression, and it was getting me depressed (Not that they MA Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01385710020671653268noreply@blogger.com0