From Zero to Horny in 5.2

Today, I didn't think I would be interested in sex. Not because my husband doesn't turn me on (or because of sexy serial killers), but because I didn't seem at all interested in sex (or anything but trying to find some laughs) (let's see how many parentheses I can put in one sentence) (apparently 8). I left the living room to join Ace in the bedroom (my plan was to cuddle, originally) and didn't feel interested in sex at all. I get into the bedroom and strip (for more skin to skin contact), and suddenly I'm totally interested in sex, which makes Ace happy, since he wasn't really expecting sex today. So, I went from zero interest in sex to horny in, like, 5.2 seconds.

Of course, sex today wasn't just about relieving the horniness. It was also, slightly, about trying to procreate. The time should be about right for making me pregnant. But mostly, it was because of my odd horniness popping up so quickly.

So, there you have it.

How was the rest of my day (at least, so far)? Well, it was odd. I've determined that I need to be a little pushy with my boss to find out if he wants me only temporarily or he thinks this should become permanent. Hopefully my co-worker will help me point out to him that it's not fair to me to keep me, and my future, waiting while he dreams of having what he had before I got there (he likes having me there, I think he just misses the woman I'm currently temporarily replacing).

Oh yeah, and it's snowing here. Makes me glad I've got the rest of the day off (well, off the roads, anyway).

TTFN!

The Dance of the Slightly Astonished

I have no idea what that title means, or what it has to do with anything. It just came to me and begged to be used. I couldn't disappoint it, not after all the hard times I'm sure it's already had in it's short life.

Ace and I are back down to one car, since we returned his father's car last night. It wasn't a problem, because right now we only need one car. I am hoping we get a second car soon, though.

We're still trying to figure out whether or not I need to get a second job. I haven't been able to talk to my boss to find out if they actually want to keep me. Part of me thinks I should e-mail the woman I'm temping for to find out if she's planning on coming back, but it doesn't feel like that's my place to do anything.

I've been thinking of my sister a lot lately. That isn't too surprising, since we've started talking to each other through e-mail recently. She's planning on coming by for lunch during her spring break. Even though that is probably a month and a half away, I'm already looking forward to it.

Well, I'm going to change my clothes into something more comfortable (on the next commercial break).

TTFN!

Serial Killers Can Be Sexy

Okay, so Ace and I are watching season 1 of Dexter. It's a show about a sociopathic serial killer (he only kills bad people). He's got a girlfriend with two kids and he works for the police department (he analyzes blood splatter). And the opening credits keep reminding me that he's a killer. And yet, his character is attractive.

You can tell he's holding back on taking care of a few problems for his girlfriend (taking care = killing in this case). And I have problems with the fact that I find this killer, who shows his audience how much of his life is a facade, so darn attractive and sexy. It's not that I want to have sex with him, but... I want the show to continue when it's over. I want to know more about this character than they have time to show.

Ace and I watched the 7 of the first 8 episodes yesterday. I was (and still am) frustrated that we only watched one episode today, because I want to know how it will go, how the story will end. And I want to know if they've set up the next season (season 2, I mean) at the end of this one.

So, the main thing I've learned lately is that serial killers can be sexy and I occasionally get slightly obsessed over television shows.

TTFN!

P.S.: I'm not loving The L Word right now (I'm trying to watch part of season 1, and I'm just not getting into it.).

Learning to Be

I think right now I'm learning how to just be. And by right now, I mean tonight. Not that I fully know what it means to just be yet. Which is why I'm working on it.

I think some of the people I work with at Bath and Body Works were surprised to hear that tomorrow is my last day (including one of the managers). But since the main manager of the store didn't ask me to stay (not that I was wanting to), I finish working tomorrow evening. It will be a little odd to have my evenings and weekends free again, at least for now, but I'm glad I had this experience.

Well, I think it's about my bed time, so I'm going to go. I'll try to find something more relaxing to do to get my mind in sleep mode.

TTFN!

All I Want for Valentines Day...

is to be/get pregnant. Which shouldn't come as a surprise to, well, anyone who has been reading. Ace is trying to be supportive of my current insane fantasy that if we have problems getting me pregnant through the rest of this year, we shouldn't get tested to find out why, we should keep trying and possibly start trying to adopt.

Have I mentioned that I might be slightly insane?

I'm not fully sure that Ace realizes how slightly obsessed I am with the idea of getting pregnant (we haven't talked much about it lately, other than to both agree that we're ready to put trying back in the picture, now that we are more financially stable). Of course, I'm still on the lower end of the obsession scale. I'm not currently sinking money into fertility monitors (maybe in April or May, if things haven't started happening).

Tonight is my last night to deal with the public while working for Bath and Body Works (tomorrow is my last day, but I'll only be there for floor sets, which means I can wear whatever I want!). It's going to be odd, yet somewhat nice not working there anymore. I'm not sure if I'll try to find another job on the weekends and in the evenings. I think Ace and I need to discuss it first (looks like something to talk about tomorrow).

Well, I've got to go finish getting ready for work.

TTFN!

Post 101

My last post was number 100 (and now you get the meaning behind the title for this post). And it wasn't about anything clever or funny. It was about mortality and death. Not exactly pleasant topics for discussion. And, not surprisingly, I didn't have any response from people. I wasn't saying anything interesting or new. So, today I'm going to post information about me.

Four Things about me

Things you may not have known about me.....

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:

1) Babysitter
2) Bath and Body Works
3) Office temp
4) Housewife

B) Four movies I would watch again:

1) The Matrix
2) Teahouse of the August Moon
3) Arsenic and Old Lace
4) Serenity

C) Four Places I have Lived:

1) Dallas, TX
2) Oklahoma City, OK
3) Tulsa, OK
4) um, that's pretty much it

D) Four TV shows I love to watch:

1) CSI
2) Bones
3) House
4) NCIS

E) Four places I have been on vacation:

1) Padre Island, TX
2) Disney World
3) San Antonio, TX
4) Bentonville, AR

F) Four favorite home made foods:

1) Potato Salad
2) Tuna Casserole
3) Ranchero Casserole
4) Snickerdoodles

G) Four places I would rather be right now:

1) Hawaii
2) Disney World
3) Las Vegas
4) My bed

Yeah, I think I'm going to go make that last one a reality.

TTFN!

Numb

I'm numb. It's somewhat nice, because I've spent the better part of the day feeling upset (what with the lack of bathrooms and frustrations with the computer at work). But having recently read about the death of Heath Ledger, I'm numb. I think it's shock. I keep hoping it's all a bad dream, not because I know him or think he's the greatest star ever, but oddly because I'm not that much younger than he was. He's 28, I'm 27. And I have always known that there is the possibility of death, but I guess it's hitting home a little more than it ever has before. Oddly, when I read of his death, my first thoughts were not of his daughter, who I do feel bad for (I'm sure it will be hard to grow up without her dad), but that it seemed so odd and out of place. And my brain keeps trying to point out that I don't know anything about him, other than he was a good actor. So, why is this death hitting me so hard?

I think I may drown my numbness in some alcohol. I know it won't fix anything, but it may cheer me up a little.

TTFN!

Adventures in Grossness

Do you know how it's going to be a bad day?

You wake up, set one foot in the bathroom, recoil because the floor is wet, and notice that there is a puddle of water around the toilet where there wasn't before (and shouldn't have been).

Then, after 3 and 1/2 hours of frustration at work because the computer doesn't want to do what it's supposed to, you find out the problem has gotten worse while you were gone (Ace took today off so he could drive me to and from work, just in case there was ice. There wasn't, but it was a wonderful gesture.).

So, then you find out that the first place you talk to about fixing your problem won't be there until tomorrow (no toilet, no shower/tub, and they can't come until tomorrow?). You sigh and half hope that your second job will want you to come in so you can go to the bathroom there (it's that or the gas station down the road). Then, your wonderful husband calls the company back to find out how much it should be, they tell him "I dunno." So he calls another company, who can come later today and it should be somewhere between $100 and $150 most likely.

After the pipes are fixed (stupid roots in the pipes), you then have the unenviable task of cleaning up after all the sludge (2 toilets, 1 tub, and 2 floors to mop, and a shower to take so you feel clean again after you finish, plus another load of laundry to do). An hour after the plumbing company arrives, you finally feel clean again.

I'm sure you can guess whose day that was.

It's gotten a lot better in the last 30 minutes (since I got out of the shower).

I'm going to go relax and enjoy the rest of my evening off. Especially since my bathrooms are clean and usable again.

TTFN!

Waiting for Words

Lately, I keep feeling the desire to write something. Then I realize that I have no clue what, so I get frustrated and don't write anything (or at least nothing I'm satisfied with). I'm not sure why, but it seems important. So, for now, I'll get on here and talk about whatever random things I think of, but in the back of my head, I'm hoping that whatever I need so badly to say will eventually come out.

I made a few adjustments to my profile, including changing my job description from future mom-to-be to future mom. I'm not pregnant yet, but it's still accurate (I'll adopt if I can't do anything else). It's hard though. It's hard watching my extended family growing while I'm still waiting (reading parenting blogs, a hobby of mine, doesn't help either). But I'm happy to see their families growing and happy. I apparently love feeling mixed emotions.

Well, I have to go. Ace wants to go pick his glasses back up (he got new ones recently and he's got his lenses switched to the permanent ones today).

TTFN!

Two Days in a Row? Wow!

I thought I'd tell you more of what happened during the great internet outage of 2007.

We lost our power for 3 days after the ice storm (it got down to 53 degrees in my house, I normally keep it at 75 people!). I ended up working some overtime at Bath and Body Works while we didn't have power. There wasn't much else to do and I was scheduled to work on those days (I went in early, and closing was usually rather late). It made my paycheck from there look at least a little nicer.

I got to see my siblings on New Year's Eve and New Year's Day (briefly, in the morning on New Year's Day). Ace and I finally visited my dad and celebrated Christmas with him. While there, I found out that I was exhausted enough to say penguin when I meant to say goose (I didn't notice that I said the wrong thing, I'm still remember saying goose, but I believe Ace and my dad when they say I said penguin). I had worked for 5 days in a row at Bath and Body Works (with the discontinued products, trying to learn where they were and still help people). Apparently, that exhausted the parts of my brain that weren't already tired. I took a nap on the way home and slept for 3 more hours after we got here.

I watched some movies. Ocean's Thirteen was good, it rounded out the series rather well. A Civil Action, which I finally got to see all (I saw part of it in my sociology class... in 2006), was good, but I didn't really like the ending. Lord of War was interesting, but I wouldn't really recommend it to everyone. Live Free or Die Hard was really good. Interesting, and terrifying, plot line. Entirely too plausible for my comfort.

Oh, and I've decided to slow down on the sarcasm this year. It's my New Year's resolution, sort of. I've done really well so far, but I still have work to do.

Well, that's all for now.

TTFN!

Attempting to Catch Up with the Internet

Well, Ace and I are finally back from our long internet hiatus. We got our internet connection back up earlier today. I am almost sort of caught up on what I normally read while I'm online.

Speaking of reading, I've been doing a lot of that lately. Mostly since the first, because I was working most days in December. I've read The Bourne Supremacy (not anything like the movie) and The Notebook. I've almost finished a book about cases tried before the Supreme Court and Bob Newheart's autobiography (I Shouldn't Even Be Doing This! and Other Things that Strike Me as Funny).

Well, I'm going to go back to reading posts. I might be caught up by the time I have to be at work tomorrow.

TTFN!

P.S.: I've missed posting. Have you missed me any?

Busy and Not Communicative

I have not forgotten about this blog, I've just been busy working and not near an internet connection much outside of work (while I'm still awake, that is). And I don't feel comfortable posting while I'm supposed to be working. Because that's not what they are paying me to do. Oddly, I'm okay with spending some time looking at websites they aren't asking me to look at. I'm weird, I know.

If you get a chance, read the book "The Thirteenth Tale". It took me a little while to get into the book, but once I did, I hated putting it down.

Well, I have to go. Ace wants to go get gas and go home.

TTFN!

Working Up a Storm

2 Words on work Friday night: seven hours.

I have worked 15 hours since Friday at 5 p.m. It's been busy, my feet and arms hurt, and I'm tired, but I'm glad to be relaxing and watching a Christmas movie (I love Christmas movies/carols).

I'm all cozy in my robe (an early Christmas present, bought from Bath & Body Works) and don't plan on getting dressed again today.

I'm off to enjoy other things online, because I have nothing left to say.

TTFN!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving from Arkansas. Ace and I are visiting my dad for the day, and I am taking a few minutes to say Hi. Soon, I'll be eating a turkey dinner that I've been waiting at least a week to get to eat. It's worth the wait.

Enjoy your holiday!

TTFN!

Of Earrings and Love

Several years ago (roughly 10), my wonderful, talented sister got me a pair of smiley face earrings with Santa hats on them for Christmas. I'm not sure why she chose them, my guess is the fact that she knows I like smiley faces. I'm not sure why they are so important to me, other than who chose them. But last December, when I went to put them on, they were lost. I still don't know where they are, somewhere in my house I assume. I hope that after we get back into our house I can find them, because they are my favorite earrings for the month of December.

Oh, and did I mention that I should be back into my house Monday? Yeah. I'll be sleeping in my bed again. I won't be posting often, but I will be sleeping in my own bed.

Well, I must go. I have a few things to do with Ace between his jobs.

TTFN!

Frustrated

Some days, I just want to scream, yell, and throw a tantrum about lack of integrity. But, of course, that wouldn't be mature, so I don't do it. But I do make decisions never to have anything to do with those people again if I can help it. Ace and I were supposed to get some money for a real estate deal he did earlier this year (a decent amount of money, that would get us back into our house), but the guy who was supposed to pay us decided to pay less than the amount he actually owed us (by several thousand dollars). So, he is on our list of people not to do business with in the future.

The plus side, I like both my jobs. There are some really great people who I get to work with, which helps make the time pass by faster (great for when I'm working at Bath and Body Works).

Okay, I'm going to eat things that probably aren't that good for me (like candy corn). Hopefully that will cheer me up.

TTFN!

Numb

Today, I'm numb. Things that I never thought were possible have happened. So far, my mind's response is to block my emotions and focus on random things. I'm just trying hard to get through today right now.

I'm going to go distract myself with something else now.

TTFN!

Now That You've Stopped Thinking of Halloween

I was just thinking of one of my friends from college. She has the knack for thinking up the most interesting and unusual costumes for Halloween. One year, she dressed as a black-eyed pea (black make-up around her eyes and a P on her shirt). Another year she was going to dress as a crayon, but changed her mind when several other girls wanted to go as the same thing. I don't remember what she dressed as that year, but she kept it secret from everyone but me that she wasn't going to be a crayon after all (because she knew I would keep that secret until Halloween).

Okay, that's all I have to say. Resume your normal day now.

TTFN!

I'm Tired

Dude, I'm tired. I mean, I've worked (on my feet) 14 hours in the past 72 hours (4 hours Friday, 5 hours yesterday, and 5 hours today). My feet are sore and I am tired.

But I have a wonderful, soft, new red robe (for less than $30, thank you store discount/sale). And I start work tomorrow morning at 9 for around $14 an hour. It's a Monday-Friday job for 3 months, 4 hours a day, doing office work (so I'll get to sit). I'm just happy that I have tomorrow off from Bath and Body Works (not that I won't probably go by the store with some out of town visitors, but not for a long time frame).

I'm going back to my relaxing.

TTFN!

P.S.: Have I mentioned that I'm tired?

I Have a Job (Again)

Today, I finally got called about the temp job I have been waiting to hear about for a month. I've got it. I'll be working for the next 3 months at a local ministry, doing various things about the office (mailing, data entry, assisting the accountant, etc.). I'm not sure when I start (I'll find out tomorrow morning), but I've got a guaranteed 20 hours a week for the next 3 months. So, now I'll be working 2 jobs part time through Christmas.

I'm thinking of celebrating. Not that I know what I should do to celebrate (maybe dream of celebrities children again?). But I am thinking of celebrating.

I'm going to go find a way to celebrate.

TTFN!