I was talking to Ace the other day and at some point, I told him that I haven't even begun to get past the surface on all the reasons I love him. So, here are just a few of the many, many things I love about my husband.
1. He makes me feel like a princess. No matter what else is going on, he does his best to make me feel special. Especially when I'm suddenly emotionally needy about it.
2. He buys me things (laptops, books, toys, etc.). Because he knows I want them. And because they will make me happy. As if he wasn't enough to make me happy on his own.
3. He takes care of me. Even when I'm at points where doing much more than eating what is put in front of me is too much, he takes care of me. Sometimes by pushing me outside my comfort zone, sometimes by just doing things that physically need to be done.
4. He won't let someone else push me around.
5. I can make him smile, just by being a little silly. Even when he's having a bad day.
6. He can make me laugh when I want to cry. He always seems to know just what to say or do at just the right time.
7. He's not afraid to be silly. Even in public. Especially if it makes me laugh.
8. He cares, deeply, about people and things. He doesn't always show it on the outside, but it shows if you know what to look for.
9. Even when he doesn't understand me, even when I don't understand myself, he still accepts me and loves me for who I am. Or he loves me despite who I am.
10. He lets me be weak until I am ready to be strong again. Even if he doesn't know why I'm feeling weak. Even if neither of us understands why I'm fighting depression. Even if it's just a bad day.
11. He's willing to do whatever it takes to make me feel safe. Even if it's cutting off ties to people. Even if I don't want that to happen.
12. He cares about those people who obviously want us in their lives. He doesn't feel that people who don't want us in their lives are worth worrying about. He's helping me to move that way.
13. He's willing to do anything, within reason, that I want to do, if it will make me happy. And it's not immoral, illegal, or unethical.
14. He makes me curl my toes. And I'll leave any other details between him and me.
15. He's got the most beautiful heart of anyone I've ever met. Despite how his family has treated him, despite how the world has tried to hurt it, despite how circumstances have been. And he gave it to me. To keep.
This list still doesn't dent the surface, but I think it's time to stop for now. I'll probably post another list at some point, but for today 15 seems like a good place to stop.
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Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Sore in a Good Way
Lately, my body has been giving off some strong signals that the past few months were not satisfying when it came to sex. Seriously, I've found it hard to keep sex very far from my thoughts.
Last night, Ace and I made a makeshift pile of blankets on the floor and took care of some very specific needs. Nothing squeaked, and I doubt the sounds that I heard would have been heard outside the closed door (unless an ear was pressed against it, and probably not even then).
Today, I'm a bit sore in some places, but it's a good sore. I've missed being able to have sex whenever it's convenient and I'm in the mood. Hopefully, the pile of blankets method won't last long. Hopefully, we'll be in our own place soon and noise won't matter.
But at least we have something that works for now.
Last night, Ace and I made a makeshift pile of blankets on the floor and took care of some very specific needs. Nothing squeaked, and I doubt the sounds that I heard would have been heard outside the closed door (unless an ear was pressed against it, and probably not even then).
Today, I'm a bit sore in some places, but it's a good sore. I've missed being able to have sex whenever it's convenient and I'm in the mood. Hopefully, the pile of blankets method won't last long. Hopefully, we'll be in our own place soon and noise won't matter.
But at least we have something that works for now.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Mentally Hoarse
Last night, one of my brothers-in-law came to Tulsa to celebrate his birthday. The in-laws took everyone out to dinner. It was a nice evening, even if Ace and I weren't initially sure we were going to be invited out.
Then today happened. It was slightly rainy out, so my mother-in-law decided that she couldn't go to church because it would be bad for her chair (Ace looked, it might have been mildly inconvenient for her later, but she has 3 chairs in total, so we think she would have been fine). Which meant Ace and I didn't get to have time alone this morning. We were planning on having sex, but that had to be delayed. It was not the best start to the day. Then, when Ace went to see if it would be quick for us to do our laundry, it turns out that the stuff that has been on the table was piled up on the washing machine. It's not surprising that we have to move stuff, but it's just one more thing.
Then, when Ace and I went to mess with dinner, we found out that my in-laws had lunch together in the dining room. My mother-in-law knew we were up, but since our door was shut, I guess they decided we didn't need or want to eat with them. We weren't invited. I don't know that we would have joined them, but they could have asked.
I recognize that my in-laws don't have to take us with them when they go out to eat. In fact, we usually don't go with them. Last night was the exception, not the rule. But today has just been a long, insane, frustrating day full of stuff that either my in-laws were doing at the point of my frustration or they had done and I found out about it later. It just feels like my in-laws don't view Ace and I as people who deserve even basic kindness. These things all sound little and petty, and they probably are, but they are just signs of the lack of respect we have to live with on a continual basis.
On the plus side, my in-laws did both go to church this evening. Ace and I had sex. I got to talk with a friend online, one I haven't talked to in a while. I have chocolate.
But that migraine is trying to come back. And my brain is starting to feel fuzzy from wanting to mentally scream for most of the day. I am getting tired of the stress levels my in-laws cause in my life. And the chocolate does not do nearly enough to help.
Somebody, send help!
Then today happened. It was slightly rainy out, so my mother-in-law decided that she couldn't go to church because it would be bad for her chair (Ace looked, it might have been mildly inconvenient for her later, but she has 3 chairs in total, so we think she would have been fine). Which meant Ace and I didn't get to have time alone this morning. We were planning on having sex, but that had to be delayed. It was not the best start to the day. Then, when Ace went to see if it would be quick for us to do our laundry, it turns out that the stuff that has been on the table was piled up on the washing machine. It's not surprising that we have to move stuff, but it's just one more thing.
Then, when Ace and I went to mess with dinner, we found out that my in-laws had lunch together in the dining room. My mother-in-law knew we were up, but since our door was shut, I guess they decided we didn't need or want to eat with them. We weren't invited. I don't know that we would have joined them, but they could have asked.
I recognize that my in-laws don't have to take us with them when they go out to eat. In fact, we usually don't go with them. Last night was the exception, not the rule. But today has just been a long, insane, frustrating day full of stuff that either my in-laws were doing at the point of my frustration or they had done and I found out about it later. It just feels like my in-laws don't view Ace and I as people who deserve even basic kindness. These things all sound little and petty, and they probably are, but they are just signs of the lack of respect we have to live with on a continual basis.
On the plus side, my in-laws did both go to church this evening. Ace and I had sex. I got to talk with a friend online, one I haven't talked to in a while. I have chocolate.
But that migraine is trying to come back. And my brain is starting to feel fuzzy from wanting to mentally scream for most of the day. I am getting tired of the stress levels my in-laws cause in my life. And the chocolate does not do nearly enough to help.
Somebody, send help!
Sunday, February 19, 2012
The Solution
Lately I've been feeling much grouchier than I generally like to be. Part of it has been the stresses of the job, but part of it has been a lack of enough good rest and a lack of sex (much to Ace's unhappiness).
Nicely, I've had lots of time off lately. I've caught up on sleep for the most part. And this morning Ace and I had sex. And now I am in a great mood. The sun seems brighter, the house warmer (I was cold), and the food tastes better.
I know that the solution to all my problems is not just sleep and sex. But they do seem to affect my general outlook on life. And even stress from the job doesn't stick around when I'm seeing the world as a good place.
I guess I just need to make sure I have sex more often. Even if my body seems to be objecting to movement.
Nicely, I've had lots of time off lately. I've caught up on sleep for the most part. And this morning Ace and I had sex. And now I am in a great mood. The sun seems brighter, the house warmer (I was cold), and the food tastes better.
I know that the solution to all my problems is not just sleep and sex. But they do seem to affect my general outlook on life. And even stress from the job doesn't stick around when I'm seeing the world as a good place.
I guess I just need to make sure I have sex more often. Even if my body seems to be objecting to movement.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
She's So Nosy
My in-laws went out of town for roughly 8 hours today. Ace and I used that time to have sex and then sleep. It was nice.
Apparently, my mother-in-law asked if we did anything fun or exciting while they were out of town. I don't know what, if any, answer she received to that question.
I do know that it feels more and more like she's fishing to find out if we are having sex when they are away from us. It would feel less creepy that she was asking about our sex life if Ace weren't her son. As it is, it's really throwing me off balance.
I would like to state now that my love life is none of my mother-in-law's business. I doubt that will keep her from asking, but it makes me feel moderately better.
Apparently, my mother-in-law asked if we did anything fun or exciting while they were out of town. I don't know what, if any, answer she received to that question.
I do know that it feels more and more like she's fishing to find out if we are having sex when they are away from us. It would feel less creepy that she was asking about our sex life if Ace weren't her son. As it is, it's really throwing me off balance.
I would like to state now that my love life is none of my mother-in-law's business. I doubt that will keep her from asking, but it makes me feel moderately better.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Day 20
Today, I am thankful for sex.
Ace and I don't get to have sex as much as we'd like. We are ready to be on our own, for the sake of our sex life if nothing else.
But when we do have sex, it's wonderful.
Ace and I don't get to have sex as much as we'd like. We are ready to be on our own, for the sake of our sex life if nothing else.
But when we do have sex, it's wonderful.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Marriage Is Work, But It's Fun
Yesterday, Ace and I got to hear about marriage and how to build a stronger marriage (we love learning about how to strengthen our marriage). Nicely, we left feeling like we'd already figured most of the things we were being taught out before now and that our marriage was flowing fairly smoothly because of it. It did, however, inspire me to want to write about marriage some today.
One of the biggest things that seems to need saying is that no one can read another person's mind. If you are mad at me, there's probably a very good chance that I don't know exactly what I did to make you mad. Most people, usually women, get mad at their spouses and then won't say why they are mad. And that just complicates things for no good reason.
To be honest, I think the biggest thing that kills most marriages is that no one in that marriage is communicating clearly with their spouse. Ace and I occasionally miss what the other person said or have misunderstandings of the ideas trying to be communicated. But, instead of just getting mad, we try again to communicate with each other. It helps us communicate with other people better, because we are working on communicating within our own marriage.
As the pastor spoke, he mentioned that if the couples he would counsel would just communicate more (and be allowed to tell their spouse what changes they need in the relationship without anger being expressed over them), most of their problems would not exist. That doesn't surprise me. Ace and I talk a lot and we don't have many problems in our relationship because we don't let things fester. I don't continuously get onto him if he leaves his dirty socks out of the laundry, but I occasionally remind him that it really bothers me. He doesn't constantly tell me that I need to start doing X or Y more often (he has things for X or Y, but I'd rather not discuss them today), but he does remind me from time to time that he'd prefer it if I'd do them. We vent the frustration quickly and then we move on to other, more positive things.
Ace and I don't push each other's buttons when one of us is mad. We walk away from the discussion for a few minutes and calm down and then discuss it calmly and rationally (normally, I'm the one who feels the need to calm down, and I haven't needed to do that in years). There's passion in our conversations, but there isn't anger or hurt. We fix the cause and that pulls us closer together. So, for heaven's sake, talk to each other! Be honest and open, but respectful! This could help keep your marriage from being a negative statistic!
Now comes the exciting part of this post. I'm going to talk about sex. Men, if you want more sex, give your wife some non-sexual affection. You can go look up non-sexual now, we'll all wait. If you are wondering how that works, when a woman gets non-sexual affection, she starts to feel loved and cherished instead of feeling like she is just someone you want to have sex with. It starts making her want to return the affection, which leads to sex. If you try giving your wife non-sexual affection and it doesn't lead to sex within a week, I'll be happy to refund you your entrance fee for reading this post. Women, if you have sex with your husband, it will lead to more affection. I'm not sure how it works, but sex will somehow make your husband more interested in giving you hugs and kisses and holding your hand and all those other things he did when you were dating (if he didn't do those things, I'm not sure what to tell you, other than point out that if he does them, he'll get more sex).
While you are doing those 3 simple things, remember that while they may feel like you are doing a lot of work (and that it may only start out with one of you doing these things, because someone has to start the process), they quickly become easier until they become habits. And once they become habits, you should realize that they are fun. Sex is fun! Non-sexual affection is fun! Communicating is fun! Not needing to fight about things is fun. And more importantly, it helps you to have a more stable relationship. I know this, because Ace and I do this. We communicate openly and honestly, we show affection for each other, we have sex and both enjoy it. And we both want you to have all of that too.
Isn't a great, fun marriage worth a little bit of work? Especially when it saves you work in the long run?
One of the biggest things that seems to need saying is that no one can read another person's mind. If you are mad at me, there's probably a very good chance that I don't know exactly what I did to make you mad. Most people, usually women, get mad at their spouses and then won't say why they are mad. And that just complicates things for no good reason.
To be honest, I think the biggest thing that kills most marriages is that no one in that marriage is communicating clearly with their spouse. Ace and I occasionally miss what the other person said or have misunderstandings of the ideas trying to be communicated. But, instead of just getting mad, we try again to communicate with each other. It helps us communicate with other people better, because we are working on communicating within our own marriage.
As the pastor spoke, he mentioned that if the couples he would counsel would just communicate more (and be allowed to tell their spouse what changes they need in the relationship without anger being expressed over them), most of their problems would not exist. That doesn't surprise me. Ace and I talk a lot and we don't have many problems in our relationship because we don't let things fester. I don't continuously get onto him if he leaves his dirty socks out of the laundry, but I occasionally remind him that it really bothers me. He doesn't constantly tell me that I need to start doing X or Y more often (he has things for X or Y, but I'd rather not discuss them today), but he does remind me from time to time that he'd prefer it if I'd do them. We vent the frustration quickly and then we move on to other, more positive things.
Ace and I don't push each other's buttons when one of us is mad. We walk away from the discussion for a few minutes and calm down and then discuss it calmly and rationally (normally, I'm the one who feels the need to calm down, and I haven't needed to do that in years). There's passion in our conversations, but there isn't anger or hurt. We fix the cause and that pulls us closer together. So, for heaven's sake, talk to each other! Be honest and open, but respectful! This could help keep your marriage from being a negative statistic!
Now comes the exciting part of this post. I'm going to talk about sex. Men, if you want more sex, give your wife some non-sexual affection. You can go look up non-sexual now, we'll all wait. If you are wondering how that works, when a woman gets non-sexual affection, she starts to feel loved and cherished instead of feeling like she is just someone you want to have sex with. It starts making her want to return the affection, which leads to sex. If you try giving your wife non-sexual affection and it doesn't lead to sex within a week, I'll be happy to refund you your entrance fee for reading this post. Women, if you have sex with your husband, it will lead to more affection. I'm not sure how it works, but sex will somehow make your husband more interested in giving you hugs and kisses and holding your hand and all those other things he did when you were dating (if he didn't do those things, I'm not sure what to tell you, other than point out that if he does them, he'll get more sex).
While you are doing those 3 simple things, remember that while they may feel like you are doing a lot of work (and that it may only start out with one of you doing these things, because someone has to start the process), they quickly become easier until they become habits. And once they become habits, you should realize that they are fun. Sex is fun! Non-sexual affection is fun! Communicating is fun! Not needing to fight about things is fun. And more importantly, it helps you to have a more stable relationship. I know this, because Ace and I do this. We communicate openly and honestly, we show affection for each other, we have sex and both enjoy it. And we both want you to have all of that too.
Isn't a great, fun marriage worth a little bit of work? Especially when it saves you work in the long run?
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Sex Cometh
So, the best part about Ace and I moving to Springfield has been the sex.
Before we moved in with my dad (for 2 and 1/2 weeks), we had kind of gone through a... well, dry spout isn't quite right, but it's close, when it came to sex. Ace was probably interested, but I was focused a bit more on anything and everything else. We had sex, but not often (mostly roughly in potential baby making times).
Since we got moved, we've had sex much more often. I'm a lot less stressed and have been interested a whole lot more. So, we've been having lots more sex (lots being relative to the lack of sex before the move).
It's been nice.
Before we moved in with my dad (for 2 and 1/2 weeks), we had kind of gone through a... well, dry spout isn't quite right, but it's close, when it came to sex. Ace was probably interested, but I was focused a bit more on anything and everything else. We had sex, but not often (mostly roughly in potential baby making times).
Since we got moved, we've had sex much more often. I'm a lot less stressed and have been interested a whole lot more. So, we've been having lots more sex (lots being relative to the lack of sex before the move).
It's been nice.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Amusement
Earlier, Ace and I were in bed, cuddling and talking. We were both in a silly mood and just generally not being serious.
I said something really strange and silly, and then I said something to the effect of "don't give me a hard time."
Ace's response: "I guess there won't be sex then."
Then we both cracked up for a few minutes.
We need more days where we get all cuddly and silly, as it's great fun.
TTFN!
I said something really strange and silly, and then I said something to the effect of "don't give me a hard time."
Ace's response: "I guess there won't be sex then."
Then we both cracked up for a few minutes.
We need more days where we get all cuddly and silly, as it's great fun.
TTFN!
Friday, December 19, 2008
Sex Heals
Yesterday (around 2 am), Ace and I had a rather serious talk. We made some decisions about spending time together and what things should cue what behaviors (when he gets home, I turn off the TV, push away my laptop, and get ready to spend time with him for at least 30 minutes). And while this was important, it was hard emotionally (yesterday, just about everything was hard emotionally).
Earlier (a few hours ago), Ace and I had sex. And I feel like our marriage has healed because of it. I feel much better with where we are now than I did 24 hours ago (we weren't mad or upset, I was just still feeling a little emotional).
In fact, I was able to tease Ace that if he did what he was planning on, I may not be able to speak English, which would make Christmas more interesting. He teased me back about trying to explain my lack of English to my father and pointing out that his family already thinks I'm kind of weird (partly because they think he is weird). Nicely, my ability to speak English has not been hampered in any way.
So, sometimes in a marriage, sex heals.
And it feels oh so good when that happens.
TTFN!
P.S.: Jenna, I'm taking the other advice you gave me. I'm sure it will help a lot. Thanks.
Earlier (a few hours ago), Ace and I had sex. And I feel like our marriage has healed because of it. I feel much better with where we are now than I did 24 hours ago (we weren't mad or upset, I was just still feeling a little emotional).
In fact, I was able to tease Ace that if he did what he was planning on, I may not be able to speak English, which would make Christmas more interesting. He teased me back about trying to explain my lack of English to my father and pointing out that his family already thinks I'm kind of weird (partly because they think he is weird). Nicely, my ability to speak English has not been hampered in any way.
So, sometimes in a marriage, sex heals.
And it feels oh so good when that happens.
TTFN!
P.S.: Jenna, I'm taking the other advice you gave me. I'm sure it will help a lot. Thanks.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Mostly* True Story
* Names have been changed to protect the identities of the participants.
A little while ago, I was talking to Ace about me taking a bath. I came into our living room to try to find a book to read and Ace asked me why I was looking outside of my erotic stories stash, not that he minded a night off (I've not been forcing the boy to have sex daily, but my brain interpreted his question as if I had been). I looked at him and asked if I looked like I was up for doing anything but soaking and reading (my arms were down at my sides, and I'm fairly sure my shoulders were still raised up some in stress). He looks me over and says, "Oh, you want the night off."
I wonder about that man sometimes, because he knew that I've been feeling kind of drained all day (I didn't get out of bed for a couple of hours after waking up, because I was letting the humidifier help clear out my nose, if that tells you what kind of day it's been.).
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
TTFN!
A little while ago, I was talking to Ace about me taking a bath. I came into our living room to try to find a book to read and Ace asked me why I was looking outside of my erotic stories stash, not that he minded a night off (I've not been forcing the boy to have sex daily, but my brain interpreted his question as if I had been). I looked at him and asked if I looked like I was up for doing anything but soaking and reading (my arms were down at my sides, and I'm fairly sure my shoulders were still raised up some in stress). He looks me over and says, "Oh, you want the night off."
I wonder about that man sometimes, because he knew that I've been feeling kind of drained all day (I didn't get out of bed for a couple of hours after waking up, because I was letting the humidifier help clear out my nose, if that tells you what kind of day it's been.).
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
TTFN!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Sex
I mention, at least from time to time, that Ace and I have sex, but I never really talk about it. I never mention anything aside from the fact that it is good (great, wonderful, marvelous, close to perfect). I think part of it is that I'm semi-slightly prudish when it comes to talking about sex with anyone but Ace (and I'm hoping to get over it in one post... wish me luck).
We have sex in different was at different times (and no, I'm not talking positions, because I need to maintain at least a slight air of mystery about my sex life).
There's the passionate sex: the kind where we (or at least I) want it hard and fast and don't really want much foreplay. The kind where I say "Fuck me now" and Ace knows exactly what I mean.
There's the sensual sex: where Ace licks, kisses, and caresses me until I'm ready to ask him to please move this into the passionate sex area, because my mind thinks it's going to explode. And he refuses for a while. And it feels so good, I wish he would move a little faster, just to take away the slightest bit of the pleasure, because I can't mentally handle it (and he still refuses).
There's the foreplay only: neither of us really wants sex, we just want to have fun. It could possibly lead to sex, but I seriously doubt it. This is rare and usually involves me giggling WAY too much.
There's the relief sex: only one of us is interested in sex (more often Ace, sad to say) and we're only having sex for that one person. This is rare and not very fulfilling. This is probably the lowest form of sex out there.
There's the slow-moving sex: this is related to the sensual, but Ace is more willing to move into passionate sex whenever I ask him too. This is the most common, as I'm sure it is in most couples. It's relaxed and friendly, but lots of fun.
What talk about sex would be complete without talking about mood breakers?
There's the bodily function mood breaker: I think this is rather self explanatory. If not, e-mail me at a_masmith at yahoo dot com and I'll tell you straight out what I mean.
There's the phone call mood breaker: especially bad when it's a relative. Few thing kill desire faster. It's extremely hard for me to get back in the mood after this one, because...
There's the random emotion mood breaker: you suddenly shift from being in the moment, enjoying the sex, to being 500 miles away emotionally (at least, that's how it feels). It's hard to recover from this, but it can happen.
Yeah, that's all the mood breakers coming to mind just now, but I'm sure there are plenty of others out there. If you think of one, let me know.
TTFN!
We have sex in different was at different times (and no, I'm not talking positions, because I need to maintain at least a slight air of mystery about my sex life).
There's the passionate sex: the kind where we (or at least I) want it hard and fast and don't really want much foreplay. The kind where I say "Fuck me now" and Ace knows exactly what I mean.
There's the sensual sex: where Ace licks, kisses, and caresses me until I'm ready to ask him to please move this into the passionate sex area, because my mind thinks it's going to explode. And he refuses for a while. And it feels so good, I wish he would move a little faster, just to take away the slightest bit of the pleasure, because I can't mentally handle it (and he still refuses).
There's the foreplay only: neither of us really wants sex, we just want to have fun. It could possibly lead to sex, but I seriously doubt it. This is rare and usually involves me giggling WAY too much.
There's the relief sex: only one of us is interested in sex (more often Ace, sad to say) and we're only having sex for that one person. This is rare and not very fulfilling. This is probably the lowest form of sex out there.
There's the slow-moving sex: this is related to the sensual, but Ace is more willing to move into passionate sex whenever I ask him too. This is the most common, as I'm sure it is in most couples. It's relaxed and friendly, but lots of fun.
What talk about sex would be complete without talking about mood breakers?
There's the bodily function mood breaker: I think this is rather self explanatory. If not, e-mail me at a_masmith at yahoo dot com and I'll tell you straight out what I mean.
There's the phone call mood breaker: especially bad when it's a relative. Few thing kill desire faster. It's extremely hard for me to get back in the mood after this one, because...
There's the random emotion mood breaker: you suddenly shift from being in the moment, enjoying the sex, to being 500 miles away emotionally (at least, that's how it feels). It's hard to recover from this, but it can happen.
Yeah, that's all the mood breakers coming to mind just now, but I'm sure there are plenty of others out there. If you think of one, let me know.
TTFN!
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Anniversaries
Next week, Ace and I will have been married for 5 years.
A lot has happened in that time. 5 years. It feels like forever (at least like I've known Ace forever) in one second and it feels like I'm exaggerating how long it's been (nope, we got married in 2003) in the next.
I'm extremely happy with how our marriage has gone. We've never had a fight. We rarely argue (debate?) about anything because we are on the same page. The sex is amazing (it's good even when it's not mind-blowing).
I found someone who understands me and loves me unconditionally. I found my self-esteem. I found someone who makes me feel like I'm a complete person in myself, even when he's looking at me like I've lost part of my mind. I found someone to help me laugh when I just want to cry.
And as soon as everyone leaves, I'm going to insist we spend some time together just being close. Because what else do you do when you are head-over-heels-in-love with someone?
Later.
A lot has happened in that time. 5 years. It feels like forever (at least like I've known Ace forever) in one second and it feels like I'm exaggerating how long it's been (nope, we got married in 2003) in the next.
I'm extremely happy with how our marriage has gone. We've never had a fight. We rarely argue (debate?) about anything because we are on the same page. The sex is amazing (it's good even when it's not mind-blowing).
I found someone who understands me and loves me unconditionally. I found my self-esteem. I found someone who makes me feel like I'm a complete person in myself, even when he's looking at me like I've lost part of my mind. I found someone to help me laugh when I just want to cry.
And as soon as everyone leaves, I'm going to insist we spend some time together just being close. Because what else do you do when you are head-over-heels-in-love with someone?
Later.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Waiting for the Undefined
I'm at the point in the two week wait where I would normally be itching to take a pregnancy test. Instead, I'm feel no rush, and in fact want to wait. I'm not sure if it's because normally when I've taken a pregnancy test it's followed by a period starting within 24 hours, but that may be a small part of it.
I think a big part of it is that if I take the test and it's positive, my life will really be changed, and I'm not quite sure I'm ready for that just yet. So, I'm waiting for now.
Maybe I'm just waiting for it to be Ace's days off so he's here with me when I test? Maybe I'm waiting for next Sunday, so we can celebrate the possibility that next year we'll be celebrating father's day for Ace? Maybe I'm just unnerved about all the possibilities, because we're coming up for our 5 year anniversary?
All I know is that for now, I am waiting, but I'm not impatient about it. In fact, I'm extremely relaxed about it right now. And I'm not sure what that means.
TTFN!
I think a big part of it is that if I take the test and it's positive, my life will really be changed, and I'm not quite sure I'm ready for that just yet. So, I'm waiting for now.
Maybe I'm just waiting for it to be Ace's days off so he's here with me when I test? Maybe I'm waiting for next Sunday, so we can celebrate the possibility that next year we'll be celebrating father's day for Ace? Maybe I'm just unnerved about all the possibilities, because we're coming up for our 5 year anniversary?
All I know is that for now, I am waiting, but I'm not impatient about it. In fact, I'm extremely relaxed about it right now. And I'm not sure what that means.
TTFN!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Enjoying the Sun
Today, Ace and I opened the windows and let the sunshine (and the wind) in the house. It was nice. I'm liking the warm weather and I'd like it to stick around. We could use more days where we can open the windows like this.
Other than opening the windows, Ace and I did nothing today. Well, we had sex, but nothing else. It was nice to relax all day. We need more days like this too.
That's pretty much all.
TTFN!
Other than opening the windows, Ace and I did nothing today. Well, we had sex, but nothing else. It was nice to relax all day. We need more days like this too.
That's pretty much all.
TTFN!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
And Then Things Got Better
Plus, a bonus weird piece of mail I got today.
I spent an hour with Ace and now I'm feeling less stressed. It's been a busy week and we haven't had much time to just be alone together with nothing else to do. We're going to try to spend an hour (or more!) together again tomorrow.
In my snail mail today, I got an offer for something I certainly don't need. It was an offer to make my pen*s longer. As I don't have one, it was certainly ridiculous. And Ace doesn't need it. Of course, that reminded me of one set of spam I forgot to mention earlier. The spam offering me pen*s enhancers or imp*tence drugs. As a woman, I find that spam the most curious of all, because it is offering me something completely useless to me.
TTFN!
I spent an hour with Ace and now I'm feeling less stressed. It's been a busy week and we haven't had much time to just be alone together with nothing else to do. We're going to try to spend an hour (or more!) together again tomorrow.
In my snail mail today, I got an offer for something I certainly don't need. It was an offer to make my pen*s longer. As I don't have one, it was certainly ridiculous. And Ace doesn't need it. Of course, that reminded me of one set of spam I forgot to mention earlier. The spam offering me pen*s enhancers or imp*tence drugs. As a woman, I find that spam the most curious of all, because it is offering me something completely useless to me.
TTFN!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
What Do I Miss?
I'm listening to Trace Adkins sing about what your going to miss as you move on with your life. And so far, I don't miss any particular part of my life that I've passed.
I enjoyed high school, but I don't really miss it. And I definitely wouldn't go back if you asked me to. It wasn't bad, but there isn't anything I really want to go back and relive. It wasn't a time that I miss.
I enjoyed being newly married, but I'm happy that I'm past that first year. We had lots of things to talk about then that could easily have become fights if we hadn't been careful. And nothing about that time is particularly near and dear to me. I wasn't close to people I am now, and I regularly saw people I didn't want to.
I'm not a mom yet, but I'm looking forward to that. And I'm fairly sure I will miss every part of that when the kids grow and change. But so far, it's something I'm looking forward to.
I miss seeing certain members of my family, that's what I miss. I miss getting to see everyone for Christmas and Thanksgiving. I miss hearing the arguments among my uncles. They argue about anything, and I think they are on the same side of the argument half the time. And all the females only half listen to what they are arguing about, mostly just enough to find out the topic before going back to more reasonable topics.
I miss seeing my friends from college. I miss the fun times we had in college. I miss having the stresses I had then instead of the stresses I have now. I miss silly jokes that the guys didn't get and making up a pretend band and having girls' nights out.
I miss seeing my best friend from high school, YzArC. And yes, I have a good reason for calling her that (it's what she requested and how she signed the map). I miss the long phone calls we have (it's been a while since we've spoken). I miss playing cards with her at lunch. I miss dressing up for her themed birthday parties. But mostly, I just miss spending time with her.
I guess it's not so much the times I miss from my past as much as the people. They helped me to become who I am now. And I like who I am now.
I'm going to go, because I think I've been deep enough for one night. Besides, I've got to get ready for when Ace comes home, because according to the stick I peed on earlier, I'm going to ovulate in the next 24 to 36 hours, so we'll be having sex.
TTFN!
I enjoyed high school, but I don't really miss it. And I definitely wouldn't go back if you asked me to. It wasn't bad, but there isn't anything I really want to go back and relive. It wasn't a time that I miss.
I enjoyed being newly married, but I'm happy that I'm past that first year. We had lots of things to talk about then that could easily have become fights if we hadn't been careful. And nothing about that time is particularly near and dear to me. I wasn't close to people I am now, and I regularly saw people I didn't want to.
I'm not a mom yet, but I'm looking forward to that. And I'm fairly sure I will miss every part of that when the kids grow and change. But so far, it's something I'm looking forward to.
I miss seeing certain members of my family, that's what I miss. I miss getting to see everyone for Christmas and Thanksgiving. I miss hearing the arguments among my uncles. They argue about anything, and I think they are on the same side of the argument half the time. And all the females only half listen to what they are arguing about, mostly just enough to find out the topic before going back to more reasonable topics.
I miss seeing my friends from college. I miss the fun times we had in college. I miss having the stresses I had then instead of the stresses I have now. I miss silly jokes that the guys didn't get and making up a pretend band and having girls' nights out.
I miss seeing my best friend from high school, YzArC. And yes, I have a good reason for calling her that (it's what she requested and how she signed the map). I miss the long phone calls we have (it's been a while since we've spoken). I miss playing cards with her at lunch. I miss dressing up for her themed birthday parties. But mostly, I just miss spending time with her.
I guess it's not so much the times I miss from my past as much as the people. They helped me to become who I am now. And I like who I am now.
I'm going to go, because I think I've been deep enough for one night. Besides, I've got to get ready for when Ace comes home, because according to the stick I peed on earlier, I'm going to ovulate in the next 24 to 36 hours, so we'll be having sex.
TTFN!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
I've Been Taken Over by a Teenager!
Somehow, my body has decided to act like a teenage boy lately. And my mind is working with it somewhat. The things I've been interested in lately are food and sex (not so much this week on the sex). Everyday lately I seem to hit a part where I'm hungry and I can't seem to get full for anything.
I'll eat a full meal and still be hungry. I haven't eaten like this in years (at least not for more than a day). I have yet to figure it out, but I am eating a lot lately.
And now I'm going to go make myself food, because I'm starving over here!
TTFN!
I'll eat a full meal and still be hungry. I haven't eaten like this in years (at least not for more than a day). I have yet to figure it out, but I am eating a lot lately.
And now I'm going to go make myself food, because I'm starving over here!
TTFN!
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Valentine's Day & Nausea
Ace and I decided to celebrate Valentine's Day yesterday. We went out to a nice dinner at El Chico. We exchanged cards (Ace got me a card that I had considered getting him). I gave him his gift(s) (me, in some lingerie). We had some only slightly awkward sex (I was feeling slightly nauseous and light headed).
And that brings me around to the nausea. Yeah, I've been feeling slightly nauseous the past two days. And my breasts have been tender some (off and on) over the last 3 days. In the past, around my period, my nipples have been sensitive, but not my whole breasts.
I'm going to go back to laying down, trying to not feel sick.
Ugh.
TTFN!
And that brings me around to the nausea. Yeah, I've been feeling slightly nauseous the past two days. And my breasts have been tender some (off and on) over the last 3 days. In the past, around my period, my nipples have been sensitive, but not my whole breasts.
I'm going to go back to laying down, trying to not feel sick.
Ugh.
TTFN!
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