I've been working on patience over the last few years. I've been steadily developing it. I'm still working on it, but I'm doing much better now than I used to.
I can tell, because today I sat and let my niece tell me which button to press while she practiced multiplication. After nearly 150 problems of 11 times ___, she was ready to move on. I was ready to move on after 20, but I figured that it wasn't a big deal to let her keep going.
Today, that was not the only thing that reminded me that I'm much more patient than I was in the past. I started my period and for the first time I wasn't wondering how long it would be before I get pregnant. It'll happen, or it won't and we'll adopt. It won't necessarily be easy, but at least we have options, which is something.
Not only do I seem to be more patient, but I seem to be more positive lately. I think that is a great thing. Until I know any different, I'll assume that just because I didn't get pregnant this month doesn't mean that I won't get pregnant next month. And I'll be patient and wait. There isn't much else I can do right now.