Tuesday, October 30, 2007

On the Outside Looking In

Sometimes, it's hard that I'm not talking to my mom. It's hard, because I want to know what is going on with my siblings. It feels a little lonely. I don't like being on the outside when I was so involved for so long, but I'd rather be happy and looking in than miserable and involved. Mostly, it's hard when I want to give my sister, Meg (again, not her real name), some support. I'm not sure when I'll get to see her again, but I know it won't be very soon.

In work related news, I'm waiting. I worked Sunday, but I'm off until Friday for my job with Bath and Body Works. I'm also waiting to hear from the temp agency. So, for now, I'm in limbo on the whole thing. Actually, the temp agency is waiting to hear from someone, so I don't know how long I'll be in limbo. It's frustrating.

Well, I'm going to go back to waiting. I'm hoping to get a call later today.


Sunday, October 28, 2007

Dreams and Reminders

I know, I haven't posted in a little while. I've been trying to relax before I start seriously working (this afternoon, I have my first shift with Bath & Body Works). It's only somewhat been successful (the relaxing).

Last night, I dreamed of working today. I had a dream about the store (and the people who work there). It was odd to me, other than I have obviously given it a lot of thought lately. I think I'm just ready for a routine to be settled (that should take a week or two though, huh?).

I got some lovely birthday wishes from some of my family (okay, my dad and my aunt). My dad's e-mail was nice, he wanted to be sure that I got wished a happy birthday on my birthday (it's not his fault my e-mail was wonky all last weekend and half of last week). My aunt sent me an e-card, but she also sent a separate e-mail to say Happy Birthday kind of from the rest of the family (with a "We miss you" added to the e-mail). I know she wasn't trying to make me feel bad in any way, but part of me did. It's funny, because I know exactly why I've cut contact, get reminded any time I'm tempted to try to reestablish contact why it's a bad idea, and am ultimately the wronged party, but I feel bad because other people are being "punished" so that I can stay feeling sane. I think it would help if I wasn't so used to seeing my family several times throughout the holiday season (starting with my birthday).

On the plus side, my in-laws are staying completely out of the situation (I know they are curious, but they aren't trying to push me into having contact with my mom). I guess they figure I have good reasons for cutting off the contact and so they shouldn't try to convince me otherwise.

In other, better, news, I have the opportunity to go work part time (for a few months) for a ministry for a good paycheck. I'm hoping that I will be able to meet with the guy who is in charge tomorrow to find out if that would be a good fit for both of us. If so, I pretty much have two part time jobs through at least Christmas. After that, I'll have a better idea where things stand with regards to finances, our options, and such. So, my life is starting to somewhat quickly turn back around.

I'm going to go. I've got a few other things I'd like to look at before I have to eat, get dressed, and go to work (not necessarily in that order).


Tuesday, October 23, 2007

2 Days of Work

Yesterday morning, I got a phone call to go be a receptionist for the day. It was good (I'll get paid to have surfed the web yesterday), but the day ended up being really long (I had to pick Ace up at 11:45 last night after being up since 7:40). Then today I had the start of my orientation at Bath & Body Works. I spent 6 hours up there, and I still have to go back tomorrow to finish. I'm tired.

But that does mean that I started work before Ace did (by a few hours). Which is completely not important to life, but an interesting fact to note (at least it's interesting to me).

I'm going to go, because I'm tired (as I think I might have mentioned).


Sunday, October 21, 2007

My Birthday Part 2

Well, after I wrote my post, Ace and I went to get our niece a card. Then we sat and talked for a little while (in Home Depot's parking lot). We got to the party a little early and mostly ended up playing with a balloon for a good portion of the party. We left before the party was over (we left after brownies were served and presents were opened). I got to watch The Corpse Bride (cute) and go to church. Then I got to find out that my cousin gave birth (she probably felt it was about time). I got to see pictures (he's a cutie). Then, Ace and I got the lovely task of talking with Ace's parents about our finances (his father felt the need to tell us things we already know, it was frustrating).

Basically, my birthday was anything but totally happy (and about pretty much anything but about me). And I spent about half of it wishing I could get drunk (not that I've ever been drunk). Church was nice.

I'm going. I'm supposed to do something about making dinner for 4.


Saturday, October 20, 2007

Another Year Older

Today, it's my birthday. It's also my niece's birthday too. I'm 27. She's much younger. Today, I get to spend part of the day at her birthday party. I don't know what else I'm going to do today, but so far it's been sleeping in and relaxing. I do need to go get dressed after VeggieTales is over.

Well, that's all for now. Just that I'm another year older.


Thursday, October 18, 2007


I have a job. I let that sink in a moment.

I have a job. Starting Tuesday, I will be working on nights and weekends at Bath and Body Works at one of the local malls. I've got a 5 hour orientation on Tuesday, and should hopefully start the regular part of the job on Wednesday. So, I am now a working woman. Ace should start working on Monday for a satellite company (well, he should start training Monday). He will also start making collections calls in November (he knows he's got this job, it's just a matter of waiting until the date he starts). I'll hopefully be getting a call on Monday for starting to work from 8:00 am to 5:00 pm starting on Wednesday. All I need now is to get a few white and black shirts.

So, now I've shared my big news with you. Share any of your big news with me.


P.S.: Have I mentioned that I've got a job?

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

A Day of Silence

I knew that yesterday, I should not post about the environment. I don't think most of the people who were writing about the environment would want to hear what I have to say (I like the planet, but I also know the claims of both sides and know which I believe). So, I decided to spend the day silent.

Plus, I was busy hemming up my new dress pants. That takes some time. In fact, I still have one pair of pants to re-hem (they are, or mostly were, just a little too long).

I've been to three interviews for evening/weekend jobs for me. All of them seemed to indicate a potential willingness to have me work there with at least 2 of them possibly keeping me after Christmas. I've also had an interview with a local temp accounting company, who said they would try to get me work, but I should also put in applications to other temp companies too. Today, I started the application process with another temp company (I'll finish tomorrow, and have an interview too). I would have done the whole thing today, but I had to go to an interview that I had previously scheduled. Ace is probably going to get a job working for a satellite company, so not too long after the New Year, we'll have a free system put in at our new house (as long as he's hired to work for them) with all of the premium channels.

So, now you know why I've not been talking on here much lately. I've been busy or just wanting to relax for most of the last week.

I'll post again when I have something to say, or when something big happens (like my world gets back on course).


Sunday, October 14, 2007


Just a quick question. Why do people insist on telling me things I already know?


Friday, October 12, 2007

Finding a Job

Well, I'm doing something I never thought I'd have to do. I am getting a job (at least one). It's an odd thing. I had an interview today for a temp agency for accounting/office work. Next week, I have 2 interviews scheduled so far (I turned in the applications today, and got appointments set up already).

Other than that, Ace and I have been ready to be back into our own house since we've been staying here. Guillermo is ready to be an indoor dog again. And the lectures we keep getting aren't helpful either.

I'm going to go. I've got better things to think about than my current living conditions.


Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Feeling Numb

I've mentioned in the past that I'm not talking to my mother. Today, I found out that her husband (my step-father) had a heart attack. I'm kind of numb. I don't know what to do or how to feel. This isn't a man I'm at all close to, but I'm stuck in shock right now (leaning towards crying). I don't know how serious it is or what is happening, but I know that trying to open communications back up with my mother isn't the right thing to do. Because I'll eventually get hurt again, and that is the one thing I'm trying my hardest not to do. So, I'll get info from what sources I can, pray, and wait. Hopefully I'll sort out how I feel before too long.

Ace and I are currently staying with his parents. It's going okay so far, but I think we are both looking forward to being back in our own house again soon.

I've got to go distract myself with something now.