Thursday, December 20, 2007

Busy and Not Communicative

I have not forgotten about this blog, I've just been busy working and not near an internet connection much outside of work (while I'm still awake, that is). And I don't feel comfortable posting while I'm supposed to be working. Because that's not what they are paying me to do. Oddly, I'm okay with spending some time looking at websites they aren't asking me to look at. I'm weird, I know.

If you get a chance, read the book "The Thirteenth Tale". It took me a little while to get into the book, but once I did, I hated putting it down.

Well, I have to go. Ace wants to go get gas and go home.


Sunday, November 25, 2007

Working Up a Storm

2 Words on work Friday night: seven hours.

I have worked 15 hours since Friday at 5 p.m. It's been busy, my feet and arms hurt, and I'm tired, but I'm glad to be relaxing and watching a Christmas movie (I love Christmas movies/carols).

I'm all cozy in my robe (an early Christmas present, bought from Bath & Body Works) and don't plan on getting dressed again today.

I'm off to enjoy other things online, because I have nothing left to say.


Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving from Arkansas. Ace and I are visiting my dad for the day, and I am taking a few minutes to say Hi. Soon, I'll be eating a turkey dinner that I've been waiting at least a week to get to eat. It's worth the wait.

Enjoy your holiday!


Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Of Earrings and Love

Several years ago (roughly 10), my wonderful, talented sister got me a pair of smiley face earrings with Santa hats on them for Christmas. I'm not sure why she chose them, my guess is the fact that she knows I like smiley faces. I'm not sure why they are so important to me, other than who chose them. But last December, when I went to put them on, they were lost. I still don't know where they are, somewhere in my house I assume. I hope that after we get back into our house I can find them, because they are my favorite earrings for the month of December.

Oh, and did I mention that I should be back into my house Monday? Yeah. I'll be sleeping in my bed again. I won't be posting often, but I will be sleeping in my own bed.

Well, I must go. I have a few things to do with Ace between his jobs.


Tuesday, November 20, 2007


Some days, I just want to scream, yell, and throw a tantrum about lack of integrity. But, of course, that wouldn't be mature, so I don't do it. But I do make decisions never to have anything to do with those people again if I can help it. Ace and I were supposed to get some money for a real estate deal he did earlier this year (a decent amount of money, that would get us back into our house), but the guy who was supposed to pay us decided to pay less than the amount he actually owed us (by several thousand dollars). So, he is on our list of people not to do business with in the future.

The plus side, I like both my jobs. There are some really great people who I get to work with, which helps make the time pass by faster (great for when I'm working at Bath and Body Works).

Okay, I'm going to eat things that probably aren't that good for me (like candy corn). Hopefully that will cheer me up.


Saturday, November 17, 2007


Today, I'm numb. Things that I never thought were possible have happened. So far, my mind's response is to block my emotions and focus on random things. I'm just trying hard to get through today right now.

I'm going to go distract myself with something else now.


Thursday, November 15, 2007

Now That You've Stopped Thinking of Halloween

I was just thinking of one of my friends from college. She has the knack for thinking up the most interesting and unusual costumes for Halloween. One year, she dressed as a black-eyed pea (black make-up around her eyes and a P on her shirt). Another year she was going to dress as a crayon, but changed her mind when several other girls wanted to go as the same thing. I don't remember what she dressed as that year, but she kept it secret from everyone but me that she wasn't going to be a crayon after all (because she knew I would keep that secret until Halloween).

Okay, that's all I have to say. Resume your normal day now.


Sunday, November 11, 2007

I'm Tired

Dude, I'm tired. I mean, I've worked (on my feet) 14 hours in the past 72 hours (4 hours Friday, 5 hours yesterday, and 5 hours today). My feet are sore and I am tired.

But I have a wonderful, soft, new red robe (for less than $30, thank you store discount/sale). And I start work tomorrow morning at 9 for around $14 an hour. It's a Monday-Friday job for 3 months, 4 hours a day, doing office work (so I'll get to sit). I'm just happy that I have tomorrow off from Bath and Body Works (not that I won't probably go by the store with some out of town visitors, but not for a long time frame).

I'm going back to my relaxing.


P.S.: Have I mentioned that I'm tired?

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

I Have a Job (Again)

Today, I finally got called about the temp job I have been waiting to hear about for a month. I've got it. I'll be working for the next 3 months at a local ministry, doing various things about the office (mailing, data entry, assisting the accountant, etc.). I'm not sure when I start (I'll find out tomorrow morning), but I've got a guaranteed 20 hours a week for the next 3 months. So, now I'll be working 2 jobs part time through Christmas.

I'm thinking of celebrating. Not that I know what I should do to celebrate (maybe dream of celebrities children again?). But I am thinking of celebrating.

I'm going to go find a way to celebrate.


Monday, November 5, 2007

Working and Waiting

Well, this past weekend (and today) I have spent most of my time working or waiting. Mostly waiting. Yesterday was a long day. 5 hours at work that felt longer. Then I came home and got the pleasure of my niece's company (she got frustrated with Ace because he refused to let her change from watching Finding Nemo to Bugs Bunny. He just refused to let her have that much control, since I know he was not fascinated by Finding Nemo.). She was also convinced that we should all go to bed at her bed time (9 is a bit early for me to try to go to sleep). She had no idea that Ace and I were still up (technically, I was on my bed already). I doubt the time change helped her any, since she was probably somewhat tired.

It's been hard just waiting. But, it's about the only thing I can do. My mother-in-law suggested that I become a squeaky wheel, but that wouldn't help the temp agency to find me a job, nor would it cause the minister to call them back. So her suggestion is not something I'm going to put much emphasis on right now.

Well, I'm going to go find something pleasant to think about.


Thursday, November 1, 2007

Getting More Hours

Next week, I've got a lot more hours that I'll be working at Bath & Body Works. In fact, I'll be working 5 of the 7 days next week (in fact, I'm working 7 of the next 9 days). It will be somewhat nice to be out of the house while Ace is at work. I'll be driving him to and from work (so I can use the car), but I'll be kept busy. I know that soon, I won't have much time with Ace (about an hour a day). I'm so ready to be back in my own home, even if I won't be there very often (actually, if I get the potential job, the one I'm still waiting to hear about, I'll have a decent gap to be home during the work week).

I'm going to do something else. I'm getting tired of waiting.


Tuesday, October 30, 2007

On the Outside Looking In

Sometimes, it's hard that I'm not talking to my mom. It's hard, because I want to know what is going on with my siblings. It feels a little lonely. I don't like being on the outside when I was so involved for so long, but I'd rather be happy and looking in than miserable and involved. Mostly, it's hard when I want to give my sister, Meg (again, not her real name), some support. I'm not sure when I'll get to see her again, but I know it won't be very soon.

In work related news, I'm waiting. I worked Sunday, but I'm off until Friday for my job with Bath and Body Works. I'm also waiting to hear from the temp agency. So, for now, I'm in limbo on the whole thing. Actually, the temp agency is waiting to hear from someone, so I don't know how long I'll be in limbo. It's frustrating.

Well, I'm going to go back to waiting. I'm hoping to get a call later today.


Sunday, October 28, 2007

Dreams and Reminders

I know, I haven't posted in a little while. I've been trying to relax before I start seriously working (this afternoon, I have my first shift with Bath & Body Works). It's only somewhat been successful (the relaxing).

Last night, I dreamed of working today. I had a dream about the store (and the people who work there). It was odd to me, other than I have obviously given it a lot of thought lately. I think I'm just ready for a routine to be settled (that should take a week or two though, huh?).

I got some lovely birthday wishes from some of my family (okay, my dad and my aunt). My dad's e-mail was nice, he wanted to be sure that I got wished a happy birthday on my birthday (it's not his fault my e-mail was wonky all last weekend and half of last week). My aunt sent me an e-card, but she also sent a separate e-mail to say Happy Birthday kind of from the rest of the family (with a "We miss you" added to the e-mail). I know she wasn't trying to make me feel bad in any way, but part of me did. It's funny, because I know exactly why I've cut contact, get reminded any time I'm tempted to try to reestablish contact why it's a bad idea, and am ultimately the wronged party, but I feel bad because other people are being "punished" so that I can stay feeling sane. I think it would help if I wasn't so used to seeing my family several times throughout the holiday season (starting with my birthday).

On the plus side, my in-laws are staying completely out of the situation (I know they are curious, but they aren't trying to push me into having contact with my mom). I guess they figure I have good reasons for cutting off the contact and so they shouldn't try to convince me otherwise.

In other, better, news, I have the opportunity to go work part time (for a few months) for a ministry for a good paycheck. I'm hoping that I will be able to meet with the guy who is in charge tomorrow to find out if that would be a good fit for both of us. If so, I pretty much have two part time jobs through at least Christmas. After that, I'll have a better idea where things stand with regards to finances, our options, and such. So, my life is starting to somewhat quickly turn back around.

I'm going to go. I've got a few other things I'd like to look at before I have to eat, get dressed, and go to work (not necessarily in that order).


Tuesday, October 23, 2007

2 Days of Work

Yesterday morning, I got a phone call to go be a receptionist for the day. It was good (I'll get paid to have surfed the web yesterday), but the day ended up being really long (I had to pick Ace up at 11:45 last night after being up since 7:40). Then today I had the start of my orientation at Bath & Body Works. I spent 6 hours up there, and I still have to go back tomorrow to finish. I'm tired.

But that does mean that I started work before Ace did (by a few hours). Which is completely not important to life, but an interesting fact to note (at least it's interesting to me).

I'm going to go, because I'm tired (as I think I might have mentioned).


Sunday, October 21, 2007

My Birthday Part 2

Well, after I wrote my post, Ace and I went to get our niece a card. Then we sat and talked for a little while (in Home Depot's parking lot). We got to the party a little early and mostly ended up playing with a balloon for a good portion of the party. We left before the party was over (we left after brownies were served and presents were opened). I got to watch The Corpse Bride (cute) and go to church. Then I got to find out that my cousin gave birth (she probably felt it was about time). I got to see pictures (he's a cutie). Then, Ace and I got the lovely task of talking with Ace's parents about our finances (his father felt the need to tell us things we already know, it was frustrating).

Basically, my birthday was anything but totally happy (and about pretty much anything but about me). And I spent about half of it wishing I could get drunk (not that I've ever been drunk). Church was nice.

I'm going. I'm supposed to do something about making dinner for 4.


Saturday, October 20, 2007

Another Year Older

Today, it's my birthday. It's also my niece's birthday too. I'm 27. She's much younger. Today, I get to spend part of the day at her birthday party. I don't know what else I'm going to do today, but so far it's been sleeping in and relaxing. I do need to go get dressed after VeggieTales is over.

Well, that's all for now. Just that I'm another year older.


Thursday, October 18, 2007


I have a job. I let that sink in a moment.

I have a job. Starting Tuesday, I will be working on nights and weekends at Bath and Body Works at one of the local malls. I've got a 5 hour orientation on Tuesday, and should hopefully start the regular part of the job on Wednesday. So, I am now a working woman. Ace should start working on Monday for a satellite company (well, he should start training Monday). He will also start making collections calls in November (he knows he's got this job, it's just a matter of waiting until the date he starts). I'll hopefully be getting a call on Monday for starting to work from 8:00 am to 5:00 pm starting on Wednesday. All I need now is to get a few white and black shirts.

So, now I've shared my big news with you. Share any of your big news with me.


P.S.: Have I mentioned that I've got a job?

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

A Day of Silence

I knew that yesterday, I should not post about the environment. I don't think most of the people who were writing about the environment would want to hear what I have to say (I like the planet, but I also know the claims of both sides and know which I believe). So, I decided to spend the day silent.

Plus, I was busy hemming up my new dress pants. That takes some time. In fact, I still have one pair of pants to re-hem (they are, or mostly were, just a little too long).

I've been to three interviews for evening/weekend jobs for me. All of them seemed to indicate a potential willingness to have me work there with at least 2 of them possibly keeping me after Christmas. I've also had an interview with a local temp accounting company, who said they would try to get me work, but I should also put in applications to other temp companies too. Today, I started the application process with another temp company (I'll finish tomorrow, and have an interview too). I would have done the whole thing today, but I had to go to an interview that I had previously scheduled. Ace is probably going to get a job working for a satellite company, so not too long after the New Year, we'll have a free system put in at our new house (as long as he's hired to work for them) with all of the premium channels.

So, now you know why I've not been talking on here much lately. I've been busy or just wanting to relax for most of the last week.

I'll post again when I have something to say, or when something big happens (like my world gets back on course).


Sunday, October 14, 2007


Just a quick question. Why do people insist on telling me things I already know?


Friday, October 12, 2007

Finding a Job

Well, I'm doing something I never thought I'd have to do. I am getting a job (at least one). It's an odd thing. I had an interview today for a temp agency for accounting/office work. Next week, I have 2 interviews scheduled so far (I turned in the applications today, and got appointments set up already).

Other than that, Ace and I have been ready to be back into our own house since we've been staying here. Guillermo is ready to be an indoor dog again. And the lectures we keep getting aren't helpful either.

I'm going to go. I've got better things to think about than my current living conditions.


Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Feeling Numb

I've mentioned in the past that I'm not talking to my mother. Today, I found out that her husband (my step-father) had a heart attack. I'm kind of numb. I don't know what to do or how to feel. This isn't a man I'm at all close to, but I'm stuck in shock right now (leaning towards crying). I don't know how serious it is or what is happening, but I know that trying to open communications back up with my mother isn't the right thing to do. Because I'll eventually get hurt again, and that is the one thing I'm trying my hardest not to do. So, I'll get info from what sources I can, pray, and wait. Hopefully I'll sort out how I feel before too long.

Ace and I are currently staying with his parents. It's going okay so far, but I think we are both looking forward to being back in our own house again soon.

I've got to go distract myself with something now.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

We Are Alive!

Our internet is down in our house (temporarily), so I'm sitting in the library to tell you that I'll be back to posting as soon as our internet at home is back up.

See you soon!


Saturday, September 8, 2007

The Dog Is In Trouble!

Ace and I went to church tonight, as we normally go to church on Saturday night. We stopped by the store on our way home to get some dog food and gas. When we got home, Guillermo was not in the back yard, like he should have been. Instead, he had wandered off (the people who mow our lawn keep forgetting to shut our gate, which is how he was able to get out). He came back home briefly (while we were gone), but our neighbor wasn't sure he was ours, so she accidentally shooed him back off. He was found by another neighbor who stayed with him while Ace (and the first neighbor's husband) went and picked him up. He's back home now, no worse for being gone (he got to play fetch with some guy for the entire time he was gone). But, he is in trouble.

I don't have anything else to say, I'm just relieved that he's home and was well watched while we were gone.


Friday, September 7, 2007

Finding My Voice

Sometimes... No, to be fully honest, most of the time, I have no idea what I'm going to write before I start. Sometimes, I change what my sentence will say while I'm typing it (if you see typos, that is a good indication of a switch in that sentence). And I don't know exactly what this blog is about. Since I'm not constantly talking about getting pregnant (much to at least some people's relief, I'm sure) and since I don't have kids yet, this is definitely not a mommy blog. Mostly, it's a place for me to say what I want to say with only my own sense of what is too personal stopping me from revealing anything, which is nice, but it leads to some posts that sound odd next to other posts. And I'm fine with that. It works. I'm unique, quirky, odd in my own way. But sometimes, I would like there to be some better flow to what I have to say.

I'm talking to the dog again. He was forgiven before the day was over. I'm frustrated that he gets into the trash, especially since I don't know how to stop it. But he truly likes us and tries hard to be good. So I can't stay mad at him for too long.

I'm going to keep trying to find my voice on here, until I find one I'm comfortable with (Ace could probably agree that I'm doing that off-line as well). Thank you for sticking with me.


Wednesday, September 5, 2007

The Tulsa World

There are times that Ace and I get our local paper (The Tulsa World, not a small newspaper, but we live in not so small town). Mostly, we get the paper when we can buy it for $8 a month. It's a good deal, I get my comics delivered to my house everyday and some crossword puzzles to do too. Ace gets whatever he wants to read from it, which isn't much usually. When they aren't running this special (which you have to pay for in advance), we refuse to get the paper and usually just buy the Sunday paper each week (which works out to $6 a month for one day a week). The main reason why is that the nice $96 a year bill goes up to $212 a year, and we refuse to pay that much. I can buy crossword puzzle books and read comics online (which is definitely at my house). We just wait until they come back by our house with that deal again.

In other news, it's raining again. I'm ready for some sunny days, but I don't think the weather forecast is promising me that anytime real soon. This means that Guillermo will only want to go outside when he really has to go to the bathroom (and we'll have to trick him out for church tonight). On the plus side, we don't have a paper getting soaked in the yard (our subscription ran out in August).

Well, my lunch is ready, so I'm going to go now.


Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Why I'm Not Talking to Guillermo

Last night, I had problems falling asleep. In fact, I ended up getting back up out of bed 2 times last night. So, this morning, I got up and told Ace that I wished him well at work, but I was going back to bed because I was up so late last night (he wasn't surprised, I think I woke him up the second time I got up). So, he goes to work not too terribly much later and I get up within an hour of him leaving. Guillermo decided to get into the trash while I was still in bed. I had trash to clean up, a dog to stick outside, and I'm still upset with him.

It didn't help that his hair gets everywhere, including inside my juice last night. Not that I would have stopped talking to him about that, because he didn't actually put them in the glass I was drinking out of. In fact, I think it was at least partially my fault. His hair is on a blanket that I cover myself up with (his hair is on almost everything) and my cup ended up under the blanket briefly last night.

I know have an e-mail address set up for this blog, so if you feel the need to say something, but don't want to post it in the comments, send your e-mail to and I will try to get back to you as soon as possible.

I would also like to remind you that if you haven't done so yet, I would like you to add your name to the map to let me know what city you live in (it's a world wide map, so you have no excuses).

I'm going to go. I have to get ready for a chiropractor's appointment (which mostly means socks and shoes need to be put on my body).


Monday, September 3, 2007

My Favorites

I got this from another blog. I thought it would be an interesting thing to fill out.

Favorite Food: Chocolate

Favorite Month: October. It's my birth month and I like dressing up for Halloween.

Favorite Movie: Teahouse of the August Moon

Favorite Sport: watching - diving on the Olympics. playing - none

Favorite Season: Spring. The flowers are pretty.

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Everything But The... by Ben and Jerry (I also like Half Baked by Ben and Jerry too)

Favorite Time of Day: 3:00 pm, because I enjoy The People's Court

Last Cigarette: Never had one

Last Drink: Um... May, I think. I don't remember.

Last Car Ride: going to church on Saturday

Last Movie Seen in a Theater: I don't remember. It's been a while.

Last Phone Call: Ace on Thursday night (he was headed home from his parents' house)

Last CD Played: the second disk of Garth Brooks' Double Live album

Have You Ever Been on TV: not that I know of.

Thing You're Wearing: white socks (I'm wearing other things than that, but thing was singular so I went with one article of clothing)

Thing You've Done Today: got dressed (again, I've done more than that, but it is singular so you get one thing I did)

Thing You Can Hear Right Now: the a/c running

Thing You Can't Live Without: sleep

Thing You Do When You're Bored: read

Coke or Pepsi: Fruit Juice (I rarely drink soda, and when I do it rarely has caffeine in it)

Hot or Cold: in between

What Do You Want To Do Before You Die? Visit all 50 states, own my own island, visit 6 of the 7 continents, have kids, have grandkids, dance like no one's watching, eat ice cream for breakfast, and make a difference in the world.

As an aside, insulting your spouse does not lead to sex. Making fun of your Kama Sutra DVD does.


Saturday, September 1, 2007

The Ultimate Gift

Today, I reread The Ultimate Gift. Not exactly a hard thing to do, because the first time I read it was to Ace on the way to and from his aunt's funeral (it was good, and seemed rather fitting). It was nice not to have to read it out loud. After seeing the movie just a few days ago (3, to be exact), it was interesting to see what had changed. After finishing the book, I noticed that the author is local to Tulsa.

I went through the tubs Ace had packed (he packed up most of the books, including The Ultimate Gift) yesterday. I pulled out a few books (less than one row on my bookcase) and quite a few CDs, mostly from our church. I think that I have enough sermons to listen to to fill up all of my waking hours for the next 2 weeks (possibly even 3 weeks) without repeating anything.

Well, I'm going to go. Ace and I have been discussing having sex, and I think I should jump on that.


Thursday, August 30, 2007


Today something happened that I don't think has happened before. Today Ace's parents called and I was happy about it. They called to offer us food, which is wonderful. Our freezer now has food in it. It's nice to get free food. We had fun putting the food all away.

I spent most of the rest of the day listening to sermons. I did get around to cleaning almost all the windows in the house too. I didn't do a perfect job, but I did a good job. I only have one window that I need to re-clean. If our lawn and our neighbor's lawn didn't have as much dirt, the windows wouldn't have been so dirty. I wasn't caring about fully clean, because they will just get dirty again when the lawns are mowed again.

I'm in a good mood, which pleases me greatly. I now have nothing else to say.


Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Recommended Movies

Well, I have about one more chance to suggest movies before I am on a movie diet for an indefinite period. So, I have some suggestions for movies for you to see.

1. The Ultimate Gift - The movie is good. The book was better, but the movie was good. The actors seem perfect for the roles they are playing. The story is believable, which is important with movies. It touches the heart, gives some laughs, and makes you want to be a better person.

2. The Darwin Awards - It's based on the books and website. I had heard of several of the stories before, but it's more interesting to see them on a screen. There are some interesting theories put forth by the main character, and the romance is sweet if predictable. Mostly, get it for the laughs (very, very funny).

3. 100 Girls - Okay, this isn't really all that much of a "chick flick", but it is a funny story of a guy trying to find the girl he had one night with in the elevator of a girl's dorm. The cool part is that they showed all different types of girls, and really got into why there is a battle between the sexes. It's funny, but has good moments of thought. And the main character's speech toward the end to his mystery girl, well... the response he got sounds like what most girls would say.

Well, that's my recommendations from the movies we got and watched this week. All really good, and all ones I would recommend to others.

I think I'm going to suggest some cuddle time to Ace soon. It's been a little while since we've cuddled.


Monday, August 27, 2007

Advice for Everyone Part 2

Respect your body. This means keeping it decently covered in public. And listen to it when it tells you it needs a break. You can only go so long on adrenaline before you drop. Don’t push yourself that far.

People who spend more time at work than at home have one of two things going on: 1. They love their job. 2. They are avoiding something at home. More often, it will be number 2. This is a problem for their marriage.

Learn as much as you can about parenting before you do it. Then, jump in with both feet and your arms wide open. And remember, when you parent you are learning as you go. So is your child. This remains true for each additional child you add to your life. Each stage is the first one.

Start your own traditions, especially around holidays and birthdays. This is extremely important. You won’t always have your parents around to do their traditions. Besides, you should have your own traditions for your own family. And as much as traditions are important, they need to change as the family does.

Always remember to let the people you love know it. Even if it’s only a simple request that they stay safe. It will warm their hearts to know how much you care. And, stay safe, because I care about you!

Be patient with small children and geniuses. Small children are still learning. Geniuses sometimes have to talk or think things out. We both require some patience in dealing with our idiosyncrasies. We are doing the best we can.

Fall in love. Believe it will work out. But fall in love.

That's all for today.


Saturday, August 25, 2007

New Feature

Well, I know that I don't have much in the way of visitors right now (and may never), but I am curious about where you are. So, down at the bottom of the page, right above the counter for number of people who've visited, there is a map for you to add yourself. I know that Ace reads my blog, and I, of course, know where he lives, but he should add himself too. All you have to put is a name (preferably the one you comment with), city, and state. I'm not going to hunt anyone down, because that is creepy and I'm not interested in being creepy.

I finished Cheaper by the Dozen last night, and have moved on to Dave Barry's Money Secrets. It's full of funny and only half accurate information (his explanation of the economy is rather accurate. Not 100%, but close), which isn't surprising since that seems to be his style overall (I enjoy reading his work, but always take what he is saying with a grain of salt. Unless he's talking about bad songs, then I pretty much agree with him).

I should go. I've been somewhat bad today by not putting on a bra yet, and I'm pretty sure my back will complain later. If I put one on now, I'll save myself frustration later.


Thursday, August 23, 2007

Remembering My Dreams

Last night, at church, I got reminded that God can do more through me than I think I can do. After church, on our way home, Ace and I talked about the dreams we have for things to do for God that we hadn't talked about in a while. We want to do things to help Tulsa be a better place. We want to help people. And if I think about what all would have to be done (or the amount of money involved), I think my mind would freak out. So, I think of the end result that God has shown me, and focus on that.

Today, Ace and I went to the library. I ended up getting 4 non-fiction books and one fiction book (the next mystery in the series I'm reading). I'm reading Cheaper by the Dozen by Frank B. Gilbreth, Jr., and Ernestine Gilbreth Carey as well as Who was Oscar Mayer? which is about the people behind the well known name brands. It's interesting to read the mini-biographies.

Other than that, I've spent quite a bit of the day listening to sermons that Ace downloaded from the internet. We've decided to cancel our Blockbuster online subscription. We're wanting to spend more time around God's word, so that is leaving, at least for now.

Well, I'm done for now.


Monday, August 20, 2007

Delays in Posting

I was originally planning on posting something on Saturday, but that plan got unexpectedly dropped. We had a brief power outage (not related to storms, and for unknown, to us, reasons). We only lost power for about 10 minutes, but when the power came up our modem never reconnected to our cable companies internet source. We did get our internet back up this morning, but it made for a long weekend with no internet. Not surprisingly to Ace, I've been online since we got back from the chiropractor's office. I've spent most of that time catching up on comics and blogs. I still have a little ways to go, but I figured I should post while I'm still thinking about it.

I started my period yesterday. Nicely, this month, it was only 2 days later than I was thinking it should be. That's a lot better than waiting over half a month and wondering.

Guillermo is entertaining to watch sometimes. He has a big need to chew on things (his things, not ours), and today he chewed on a can for a little while. He closes his eyes when he chews. He also spent a moment or two wiggling on his back (I guess scratching an itch). That made me laugh because it looked so odd.

We've slowed down right now on watching stuff. We spent most of this past weekend listening to sermons and playing games on our laptops. Not a bad way to spend a weekend, but an odd way.

I think I've found that I'm very picky about what mysteries I like. I don't want to read about someone being in danger for most of the story, which cuts down on the number of mysteries I can read by a large portion. I seem to prefer ones that make me think (like Sherlock Holmes stories).

Well, now that you're caught up, I'm going to go finish catching up myself.


Wednesday, August 15, 2007

The Ticking Away of Time

I don't know if any one noticed, but it's almost time for my period to start. I feel slightly disappointed in myself, because I mentally promised myself I wouldn't say anything about it. There are, according to some of the blogs I read, a lot of people out there announcing pregnancy. And there are some people who are happy for them, but bitter that they aren't part of the crowd. I know that feeling, and there is a part of me that is bitter because those same people have one child while I have a dog. It's hard, because I am genuinely happy for them (the pregnant people, and the people who already have kids), but I desire to be one of them so badly it hurts sometimes.

So, hopefully I won't start my period. Hopefully, despite some things I wish would change, I'll be pregnant and waiting for the next 9 months to pass so I have my own adorable, so-cute-I-want-to-consume child of my own to hold. At the very least, I hope that in the next few days I'll get to have sex with Ace again (his being busy 2 nights a week puts a cramp in our sex life) and a few other things will turn around.

I'm going to go cuddle with my husband, otherwise I think I may cry.


Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Visiting My Father

I'm not visiting my father currently, but I've been thinking about what I like when I am. I enjoy spending my time there reading. I do that a lot there. In fact, I spend almost all the time I'm awake while there reading. One of the other things I like about being there is the food. I enjoy eating the food my stepmother makes, and I enjoy the restaurants that my father takes us to when he's giving my stepmother time off from cooking for everyone. The food is good and healthy.

What I have been doing lately is spending time reading books from the library. Right now, I've got 6 mystery novels (Ace doesn't want to have to keep taking me to and from the library twice a week). We're hoping that a once a week trip will be able to satisfy my reading needs. That is made slightly more difficult when I consider that I read about a book a day (even with watching TV and doing chores).

Well, I think I'm going to go do something else now. Like watching TV and doing a little reading of some books.


Saturday, August 11, 2007

What I Learned Today

Today, I learned that I need to start taking an iron supplement every other day. Otherwise, I start feeling light-headed and things seem kind of fuzzy. I'm hoping doing so will also help with the sleepiness issue too (it should). I should have realized, because I felt the same way on Wednesday and the iron pill helped then (well, I felt like things were fuzzier today, but other than that).

I also learned that Guillermo will, when he can't get into the trashcans, knock stuff off the counter and get himself in trouble that way. He tried to hide under the car (which worked for a very short time) to get away from the trouble he was in. He ended up outside for around an hour and then he had a bath to get the grease and oil from the engine off him. He's clean now, but we are going to have to be more creative. He only acts up like this when we are gone, not at night. It's odd. Janet thinks it could be separation anxiety. I guess it's possible, but it's frustrating.

Well, I'm off to do other things.


Wednesday, August 8, 2007


I'm currently thinking about accomplishments.

Let me clarify. I'm thinking about how weird it is that some accomplishments are easy to define (like I got my laundry washed and dried or I finished reading my book - both actually happened today) and how others are harder to define (like I figured out x, y, and z, but am I really sure about where I stand on them - totally didn't happen today).

I also am wondering about what my goals are.

I know one of my main goals is to get pregnant and then raise said children after successfully giving birth to them. And I'd like to raise them well. I want them to do good things and not be dependent on me for, well, anything.

But what are my goals after the kids are grown? I can see parts of the world while raising kids, so that's not so much a goal really far out. I can read whatever books I want around raising kids (the books won't be read as fast, but they will get read).

Why are all my current goals things that could be fully accomplished in the next 20 years?

And there I am slightly stumped. For now.

Maybe around then, I'll be ready for a cross country road trip, with some mix tapes (more likely mp3s or whatever is popular then). Or maybe I'll have a connection to someone I've never met before and learn their life history.

The important thing is, I know I have options, and I'm looking forward to figuring them out as I get there.


Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Summer's Here (Where's My Energy?)

Summer finally hit Tulsa this past week. We've started having consistently warm days, and are expecting highs in over 100 in the next week (if the weather forecast is to be believed). Despite the warm weather, I feel like spending all my time napping in my bed. I don't remember ever being this chronically tired before. Today, I didn't fully get dressed or even walk outside the shelter of my house. We opened the curtains and let the sun shine in, but I stayed in the pajama bottoms I put on last night. The only fresh air I've gotten is when I've let the dog in and out, which isn't much.

I did read quite a bit today, but that's all I did. I read over half of Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe. I read my chapter from the Bible (John 16). I played games on my computer (Spider Solitaire) and read blogs. Basically, it boils down to the fact that I didn't clean the bathrooms like I intended yesterday or do anything else really. I did get some dishes done, but that wasn't really all that time consuming (and it was so Ace would make some pudding, so it was kind of selfish). I'm hoping tomorrow will be better (I will at least get the laundry washed, dried, and in the house).

Well, I'm off to spend some time with Ace. I promised him some cuddling before he went to sleep (he had a test to take first. The certificate next to me tells me he passed).


Monday, August 6, 2007

Being Lazy and Keeping Busy

The past two days have been an interesting study in opposites. Yesterday, Ace and I were lazy and watched DVDs and had sex. Today, we both were rather busy (well, I was as busy as I get). I got all our laundry folded and put away (someday, I'll keep up with that), the dishwasher unloaded and reloaded, and I cleaned out the one drawer we had left before our house was fully organized. I finished another chapter in my book on global warming (it is decidedly not favoring Al Gore's opinion on global warming). I went to the library and checked out three more books to read (May Contain Nuts by John O'Farrell - almost done with this one already, Hickory Dickory Death by Agatha Christie - I enjoy her books, and Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg - I was looking for this one when I went to the library last week). Oh, and Ace and I went to our chiropractic appointment this morning too, if everything else weren't enough.

Yesterday, we tried to watch The Seven Year Itch. I think we made it almost halfway through before we decided that the imagination of the main character was annoying. Every small little thing got blown up into this big huge deal. We enjoyed watching Police Academy. I, oddly, have seen some of the sequels, so I knew I would enjoy it. I think Ace had already seen it at some point, so he knew he would enjoy it. We are also halfway through season 2 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I've enjoyed listening to the commentary on a few of the episodes. It has convinced me that we totally need to get the entire series when we can. And we should probably get the series of 21 Jump Street too. Why didn't I notice how cute Johnny Depp was when the show was first on? (I guess I was too young to appreciate him at the time.)

Well, I think I'll get back to my book. It was somewhat hard to put down this long.


Friday, August 3, 2007

Lack of Energy

After keeping busy for the past couple of days, I find myself wanting to just spend a few days laying around and doing nothing. Actually, I was fine with doing stuff this morning, but once noon hit, I seemed to want to lay around and not do anything for the weekend. I can't even seem to come up with anything I want to do besides lay around and watch TV. I've prayed, read my Bible, got the laundry clean (folding can wait, apparently), unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher, and caught up on the comics from the paper. Oh, and I made a trip to Blockbuster with Ace earlier today. My body seems to be saying that I've done enough for the rest of the day, so I should take it easy. I have done a lot in a short time frame, but half of the stuff is just putting things in a machine and letting it do most of the work.

On the plus side, we've started Buffy the Vampire Slayer season 2 and Ace has 2 loans in the works (with a potential 3rd loan to be started soon). So, things are looking up for us.

I'm going to go, because of that very important laying around thing my body is pulling me towards.


Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Sleeping In

Well, 3 days into my new routine, and I've slept in (10-20 minutes) 2 of those days. I've not intended to when I went to bed the night before, but needing a few extra minutes has caused it to happen. Of course, having a full bladder does encourage getting up and out of bed, so I couldn't sleep in too much.

Ace started training earlier this evening to be a mortgage consultant/originator. He's got 7 more classes (Tuesdays and Thursdays for most of the month). Which means that I'm spending those evenings watching TV and hanging out with Guillermo. Of course the only difference between that and the other nights of the week is that Ace won't be here with me (and we usually watch movies when he is here).

On the movie front, we've watched Apocalypto (long, in Mayan, and Ace and I spent what felt like half the movie wondering what it was about), Rumor Has It (good, funny, sweet, and thought provoking), Payback (sometimes, it's nice to watch things randomly blow up), and Monty Python's Meaning of Life (funny, random - which is the Monty Python style, and entertaining - at least to me). And last night I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (I love the songs) and V for Vendetta (a movie I enjoy, even though I'm not fully sure why).

I've been reading some too. Yesterday, I read Can't Wait to Get to Heaven by Fannie Flagg (at least it was the version in Reader's Digest Select Editions book). Today, I've worked on The Darwin Awards IV: Intelligent Design (and I added the Darwin Awards movie to our queue on Blockbuster's website) and I've started Welcome to the World, Baby Girl! by Fannie Flagg. Ace and I went to the library where I was hoping to find Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg, but it wasn't on the shelf.

My only other news is that I've been tired and sex has been fairly constantly on my brain lately. It's been odd. I could be tired from trying to shift my schedule some (at this point, I'd be happy to keep myself getting up before 9:30 and work from there). I'm thinking the sex thing is probably coming from the rampant baby lust I've got from hearing my biological clock ticking loudly in my head for the past 2 years (not that I think that is all of it, just a large part of it). I do seem to have a greater interest in sex in August, so it could just be a preprogrammed response to the time of year.

Well, I think I shall go back to my book.


Saturday, July 28, 2007

Making a Plan

Ace and I have just set ourselves up a plan for what we are wanting to do daily to make things better for us. We are going to start walking around one of the local malls to get exercise in. I'm going to start getting up at a regular time (which will get earlier until I'm regularly getting up at 8:00 am instead of somewhere between 9 and 11). We are going to spend time studying the Bible and praying together everyday. I will watch only 2 hours of TV during normal business hours (Judge Alex and The People's Court, from 2 to 4). I'm going to spend more time reading books/magazines and less time online. This should also get me doing chores more regularly and with less time from start to finish.

We used to actually do most of this stuff (we even worked out in a gym regularly for about 4 months). And we liked how things went when we did. I'm not really sure why we stopped, other than we let other things become more important. With us walking again, I should get back down to the weight I would be best at (110-115 lbs. or 115-120 lbs., instead of 150-155 lbs.). We've determined it's not my eating habits as much as my exercise habits that got me weighing a good 30-35 pounds more than I should. Since I'm not walking all over a college campus (lugging around heavy textbooks), I've gained a little too much weight. Starting walking again should help me drop most of it (and hopefully decrease my bust size some too). Joining a gym is planned in the near future.

Well, I'm going to go. We're going to spend some time in prayer tonight, and I need to get ready for that.


Dreaming of Others

So, the past 3 nights I've had rather vivid and memorable dreams. I mentioned the dream about the Crane brothers from Frasier (And I know that Niles ends up married to Daphne before the end of the series, so it's totally illogical. That, and I'm married already too). 2 nights ago, I dreamed that I was Veronica Mars and in my dream Weevil and Mac were dating. It was a dream that came out of no where (we haven't been watching Veronica Mars lately). Oh, and there was this weird college retreat where the students were pretending to be animals, but in male-female pairs (no sex going on, because my dreams only have me having sex). I was not actually supposed to be there, and was trying to convince the professor in charge to let me just observe (while not being totally weirded out).

Last night, I dreamed of another blogger. I was staying in her home (for some unknown reason) and that was apparently not the fist time I had done so. And I had relatives visiting her house (we were all eating Christmas cookies in March or April, it was very random. I even dreamed about her sons (but not her husband, oddly enough). I don't remember if Ace was there, but he should have been.

In dog news (since there is nothing to report baby wise in the slightest), Ace is the one who feeds Guillermo, plays fetch with him, etc. But Guillermo still stares at me while I'm eating as if I'm just going to give him the rest of my food (which is really stupid when I've just started eating). He seems to think that I will be the weak link on giving him food at the table if he stares at me long enough (which ends up with Ace telling him to leave me alone often when I'm eating). Guillermo seems to love me, despite the fact that I have little to do with him. Ace thinks that all male dogs seem to prefer women to men. I like Guillermo, but I deal with him strictly on my own terms (which means as little fetch as possible).

You are now caught up on my random dreams and my dog's love for me. I've got nothing else to write about right now, so I'm going to go back to my day.


Thursday, July 26, 2007

What Dreams Come

I'm beginning to think that I have the weirdest dreams in the world (when I'm not subconsciously dealing with something). Last night, I dreamed that I was dating Frasier Crane and then Niles Crane (from the show Frasier). And, there was a trip to Vegas (where I spent all my time in a hotel room, fully clothed, with Niles Crane). What does that kind of dream mean? Especially when you consider that I haven't watched Frasier in a long time. And does it have anything to do with me feeling tired all the time (I'm not pregnant, I just finished my period)?

Yesterday, I had a great day. I slept for 10 hours the night before (so I woke up feeling wonderful). I got to relax for most of the day. I got some chores done (laundry and dishes). I got to see Cocoanuts (Marx brothers movie, great for laughs), a couple of interviews with some of the Marx brothers, and a couple of episodes of Penn & Teller's Bullshit!, which made me laugh. And I enjoyed the praise and worship service at church (I left feeling peaceful and full of joy). Oh, and then there was the strawberry ice cream. A wonderful day all around.

I think I'll go back to reading about episodes of the Simpsons. Not intelligent, I know, but it makes me smile.


Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Sometimes I Want to Be Alone (With My Friends)

Tonight, Ace and I had a friend, who I'll call Janet (not her real name, I never use real names for people), and her kids over. I'll call her kids Jack and Jill. We attempted to have a grown-up conversation, but it was slightly hard with her kids wanting to pop up and have her attention. Her kids are cute, I think they are great kids, but I was ready to shoo them out of my house about 30 minutes before they ended up leaving. I wanted to keep Janet around to talk more though. Every time we get to talk with her, we find out more about her life before we met her, so it's fun to talk with her. As Jack and Jill are young (5 and 4), they had to get home and go to bed. But they had some fun playing with Guillermo and running around in our backyard before they left.

It's felt like a long day. I know it hasn't been any longer than any other day, but it's felt like it was longer. That could come from spending a couple of hours in a car today (which definitely wouldn't help the feeling), but I'm not sure that was all of it. I'm pretty sure tomorrow will be better.

I'm going to do something that no longer requires much brain usage. I'm feeling somewhat tired.


Monday, July 23, 2007

Out and About

Ace and I have been visiting my dad in Arkansas. As our visit comes to a close, I'm convinced that at some point, I must see The Simpsons Movie. I enjoy watching the show sometimes, but I feel the need to see the movie when I can.

To totally switch topics, there was a time I tried to write a book. I actually got seriously started on it, planned out quite a bit of it, but stopped for reasons I don't remember now. I think it had to do with school and homework. It was going to be a romance novel & mystery. I don't know if most people would have found it to be very good, but I really was enjoying writing it. Unfortunately for me, I've lost everything I had on that story, so I really have no way to go back to writing it.

Yeah, I'm done with the randomness now. I'm off to do something else.


Friday, July 20, 2007

Things I've Learned This Past Week

1. My dog snores. Not loudly or regularly, but randomly and rather softly. But, he snores.
2. Mosquitoes made it through Oklahoma's rough winter. The ice and snow storms weren't bad enough to get rid of the mosquitoes.
3. Five days is long enough to get my hopes up, but not so high that they are crushed when I get a negative pregnancy test and my period within the span of 30 hours.
4. I may use a fake name for me, but I use my dog's real name on my blog (who is going to drive through Tulsa calling out for Guillermo and expect only my dog to answer?).
5. It's hard to own a dog sometimes. Like when you want to laugh at something funny and accidentally wake up the dog who isn't used to sleeping outside (but will have to do it through Monday night).
6. Right now, it's so not the heat, it is totally the humidity.
7. What you think will be a 5 minute trip to drop off a garage door opener can turn into a 45 minute trip that includes a look at a friend's shoes.
8. I'm going to enjoy having a quiet house as long as I can, but I'm looking forward to having kids.
9. Even though I'm ready for Guillermo to be past the puppy stage, I still want to get a puppy next year.
10. Some people keep choosing the wrong guys to date. They deserve better. And, while a hug won't fix it, they deserve a hug too.
11. Sometimes a free dog does not come with everything you need, even when you get food, bowls, and a toy with the dog.
12. I like to write lists. They make for easy posts.

Well, now you know some of the things I've learned this past week. Maybe I'll do this again sometime.


Wednesday, July 18, 2007

We Have a Dog (and a Freezer)

Well, we decided to take our friend's dog. His name is Guillermo. He's a big dog. I don't think he quite knows what to make of his new home yet, but he'll figure it out. He likes to play fetch and his nails click on the laminate in our kitchen. He was free, so we couldn't beat the price. I am looking forward to getting into a bigger house, because he is a big dog (around 110 pounds) and that will give him more room to move around without possibly bumping into things.

Our freezer got here before noon today. That was cool, because it was scheduled to get here between 12:45 and 2:45. It's all plugged in and cold by now.

And that is the big news in our house today. You're all caught up.


Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Random Power Outages

Today, for a couple of minutes, our power went out. We don't know why (we think they may have been working on the lines nearby). It was just odd. That's happened a few times since we've moved in. I wonder if there is problems with power surges or something. Usually, it is fixed quickly. The times that it isn't, it's usually pouring rain outside so I completely understand it taking time. It only goes off randomly like that maybe every 6 months or so.

Ace worked on clearing space in our garage for the freezer. It's amazing how much stuff we keep out there that stack up in a small area when it needs to. We did have to rearrange where we plugged our garage door opener in, but we'll finish hanging the cord soon (with Ace doing most of the work).

I guess that's all for now. I just felt the need to wonder about the power outage.


Time Marches On

Well, I am now 2 days late for my period. Of course, after last month, I'm not holding my breath. But I am still wondering and waiting for it to be next Sunday. Trying to keep busy.

Ace and I bought a freezer today. A big (19.7 cubic feet) chest freezer. It will sit (after it is delivered Wednesday) in our garage. We are hoping to fill it next Wednesday with food. We are going to fill it with what little is in our fridge's freezer (shouldn't take up hardly any space) so that we can clean out the freezer in the fridge. Then, we plan on moving what is in the fridge to the freezer, so that we can clean out the rest of the fridge. And then we can move almost everything back.

Oh, and Ace and I may be getting a yellow Lab soon. We have a friend who had one and couldn't keep it, gave it to her uncle who now can't keep it, so we may be getting it. We have been planning on getting a yellow Lab at some point. I wanted to wait a little longer (before the phone call tonight), but it should work out. Plus, this way our friend would still get to see her dog.

And if that weren't enough excitement, we're going back to cleaning closets tomorrow (we have 2 closets left to clean, because everything else is pretty well organized). I can sense you excitement already. But, after this, we will be done organizing for a little while.

Well, I have to go. I have a book to read and water to drink (so that my husband will be happy).


Friday, July 13, 2007

Things I Love

5 things I love, but am not sure why I love them.

1. You've Got Mail - I love this movie, and part of it is the children's bookstore. I love the look and feel of it all. But I'm not sure why I like the story.
2. red and black licorice - I love both kinds, which is odd since most people have a preference for one or the other.
3. Logan Echolls from Veronica Mars - he vacillates from bad to good so often that I'm not sure why I love him.
4. romance novels - I enjoy them, but don't know why. They are not realistic, but I enjoy devouring them.
5. Buffy the Vampire Slayer - I like how empowered the women are/become, but I'm not sure why I enjoy the series so much over all.

There you have it. A random 5 things to let you know a little more about me.


Thursday, July 12, 2007

Odd Feelings

This has been a week of ups and downs. I got a wonderful massage on Tuesday (the full enjoyment was slightly ruined when I got stressed by the collections call that afternoon). I cried over spilled spinach in my sink yesterday. And today, I am proud of myself for doing a lot of chores around the house. I got all my dishes clean (for a few hours), I got all my laundry put away (not a hard task), and on the fun side, I had sex with Ace. All in all, a good day. And yet, there is a part of me that feels off. I can't figure it out. Like I'm supposed to say or do something, but I can't quite figure it out. It's unsettling.

I've made it through most of the 2 weeks between best time for conception and when my period is supposed to start (Sunday, based on the change of dates last month). My breasts were tender earlier today, but that is somewhat common right before my period, so I'm trying not to read anything into that. But it's hard. It's hard to stop my hopes from rising so they won't be dashed. It's hard to try to stay realistic. Yes, we have a better chance this month because I finally got good information on when it would be best to try. Then I have the word "but" ring in with "but it may not have happened yet." The waiting is the cruelest part.

Can I go back to my fantasy that I will have a positive pregnancy test this month? Because that fantasy could come true.


Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Collections Calling

Ace and I are in a slight financial bottom right now. I'm not going to go through the details, because I'm trying to avoid anything remotely depressing. Suffice to say we have some collections people calling us. Ace talked to a woman for at least 15 minutes today who seemed to be missing the logical parts of her brain. She kept repeating the same things over and over, in an attempt to get a post-dated check (we know we have some money coming sometime this month, but aren't sure when that is yet). She wasn't getting anywhere with demanding answers from Ace and thought that point out my credit would get hurt too would change what he had to say (how many different ways can you say I don't have the money right now?). Ace ended up just hanging up on her after it became obvious that she wasn't really paying any attention to what he had to say. We've already told them several times that we will call them when we know the date we will be paid and give them a post-dated check at that time. Of course, they don't like hearing that.

Well, I've depressed myself some now. I'm going to go find non-food type ways of easing my mind.


Monday, July 9, 2007

Cleaning to Forget

Today, I read a powerful post on I'm Doing the Best I Can (see link over there ->). Dawn was talking about her father (Father of Mine). And a lot of that post reminded me of my mother. Not the physical parts, my mother never beat me, but the emotional feelings. I've not talked to my mother in over a year. And it's brought me incredible peace. I had gotten to the point of not being able to believe anything she had said, even though part of me wanted to. I pushed past the belief that was ingrained in me that we must keep our parents in our lives because they are related to us. And it was hard. I didn't end up just cutting her off, but I cut off my extended family on her side too (which is most of my family). I also cut off most of the contact I have with my siblings. I now find out very small snippets from my dad and from my sister's blogs (when she updates them).

In order to push past the painful feelings, I turned to working on cleaning and organizing my house. And it worked for a little bit. I have 2 nice looking closets, almost all of our blankets are folded and put away. I know where all my shoes are (and they look nice all paired up in the closet). My spare room is ready for the massage table that will briefly occupy it tomorrow (I get a massage tomorrow!). And now that I'm relaxing some, the feelings are returning. They aren't as strong, and I'm thankful for that.

Dawn mentioned that she dreams of her father, and I also dream of my mother. Not often, and it's gotten to where there isn't anger in the dreams when she's around, but I wonder why she is there. I am glad the anger I felt for her has stopped, it wasn't healthy and shocked me with how intense it was. It has also made it easier to forgive her. I occasionally remember some happy memory that includes her, and part of me wants to call her to let her know until I remember that calling her would just end up in pain. Those memories are somewhat bittersweet now.

Anyway, I'm going to go do something else. So that I will hopefully have better thoughts.


Saturday, July 7, 2007

Movies, Movies Everywhere, What Shall We Watch

So, Ace and I have just finished watching most of season 1 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer (we missed 2 episodes because we didn't find them on disk one). We've been watching them slowly, and through getting them in the mail. We got to see disk one and then the first half of season 1 of 21 Jump Street, so it's been interesting keeping track of two different series (hopefully we'll get the other half of 21 Jump Street season 1 soon). We've also watched Weird Al Live from his Running with Scissors tour. Very fun and the new voice-overs for the educational films were funny too. We watched Farce of the Penguins last night. It was funny, but not something I would expect most kids to watch. The only other movie that I know for sure we've watched is April's Shower, which was interesting, funny, and very very odd.

After watching movies most of the day, I think I'm going to go take a bath. It'll feel good.


Thursday, July 5, 2007

How We Met

I'm not talking about how any of my readers (the few of you that there are) got here, because other than Ace I have no clue. I'm talk about how Ace and I met (a story that most of my family doesn't know, but is rather interesting).

Ace, who I have to start with because he actually traveled more than I did for us to be able to meet, came down from Tulsa to celebrate his grandmother's birthday with her, his parents (they drove in their own car, separate from Ace), and at least one of his brothers. I have no clue what they did that day, but Ace's brother (who was just my friend at the time) invited him to go to a get together with the college/young singles group from his church. At first, Ace wasn't going to go, but he decided that he would since it was just burgers and fun.

Meanwhile, I was trying to figure out what to wear, hating all my clothes, and not at all interested in guys. I had recently had a guy express some interest in me, but he was also actively seeking out other girls he thought he might like (he was supposedly searching for a wife). This guy and I had no actual relationship, but he could have mentioned to me that he was still talking to other girls too (that part is just a side note and really has nothing to do with the story). Anyway, I was wanting to hang out with my friends and be cheered up.

After I got to the get together (with several other people) I discovered my hopes were probably not going to come true, because there was a football game on that almost everyone was watching. I, personally, do not like football, so I was rather disappointed. I decided to sit a little ways away from the game and just relax. I noticed Ace when walking through the living room, mostly because he was the only person there I had never seen before. After a little while, some of the group who isn't as fond of football came over and started talking with me, including Ace's brother. Ace followed his brother over, mostly because he didn't care about the game either, and wanted to know who his brother was talking to.

Eventually, most of the group who was talking with me went somewhere else, leaving me alone with Ace. I noticed that he had finished his drink (I was also trying to see his name, since it was on his cup) and I offered to show him where he could refill his cup. He accepted my offer and followed me (according to him, it was partly so he could check out my ass). Ace and I talked a little more after we got done with getting drinks and then we played cards with his brother and another friend. The group started out with Ace and his brother playing on the same team, but Ace pointed out that since they knew each other well they probably shouldn't be teamed up. So, I made his brother switch places with me so Ace and I were on the same team. We only got through 3 hands of Spades before it was time for us to go, but we felt the chemistry starting then and it hasn't stopped yet.

And now you know the tale of how Ace and I met.


Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Advice for Everyone (I Guess)

Earlier, I promised to share the advice I'm writing for my children/nieces/nephews/ anyone else. Here is part one of that advice.

Don’t ever fully grow up. This advice is one of the most important pieces of advice I could possibly give you, especially since so much of the world needs to learn it. This will keep you looking young for longer than you think it will as the truly young at heart look younger than they are.

Always try to look at something as a child does each day.

Listen to God. This is especially important when your mind and your heart say two different things (God speaks to your heart). If it’s God, it won’t change (and God has a really big time table).

Always, and I do mean always, keep your checkbook balanced. This will save you more problems than you realize.

Read. Read a lot of books. Try new genres. Try new authors. Explore. This will teach you more words (meanings and spellings) than you could ever imagine.

Don’t read the newspaper, except the comics. More importantly, don’t watch the news. You can find out the important things that are happening on the internet. And, there are many more happy stories there.

Education is important. Having said that, remember that there are many kinds of education. Some can be taught by others, which is the best way to learn when possible. Some can only be learned by doing, which can sometimes hurt. Don’t shy away from the lesson; it is there for a reason.

Not everyone you are related to is supposed to be in your life. Sometimes, it is better to create your own family. Listen to your heart to find out when that is. This is obviously the case when if it were anyone else people would encourage you to break off contact.

Writing in a Public Venue

Writing like this is an interesting thing. I never know what will get anyone's attention. And sometimes it is the most mundane of things (or seems to be mundane to me). I'm not upset about it, it's just that it always seems to be the topics I figure no one will care about. Things like cleaning my bathrooms, which is less interesting in my mind than almost anything. But, I love the comments and am interested in how my blog is found.

I think that later today, I am going to start adding my advice to younger generations. If you have something to add to it, leave me a comment. If I agree, you will probably see it in the future when I post more advice. I'll probably also add it to my off-line list on which I'm drawing my advice.

Well, that's all I have for this post. See you next post!


Monday, July 2, 2007

I'm Dreaming A Little Dream

The past two nights, I've had dreams about me living with my mother. This is odd because I'm not talking to my mother (mostly for my peace of mind). In my dreams my mother didn't really say anything. I have no intention of ever moving back in with my mother, so these dreams are odd.

Ace and I are back into our two week (or longer) wait to find out if we've accomplished pregnancy this month. Since we have to wait, we are cleaning house and making plans for things to do to keep us busy while we wait. And, of course, we will continue to have sex, because that is just fun. Today, I have cleaned bathrooms, which was a slightly big task.

Okay, I've run out of things to say for now. I guess that should indicate that I'm done.


Friday, June 29, 2007


Today, while I was watching TV, I started wondering how effective the commercials that are show are. I mean, I know that I remember them, so for that part they are effective. Most of them make me feel like they are insulting my intelligence and does not make me want their product. But enough about my frustrations with commercials.

While Ace went and looked at houses today (3 and 1/2 hours), I did lots of housework. My laundry is all folded and put away. Most of my dishes are now washed. And I feel rather tired physically (not sleepy, just lacking the desire to move). My brain, on the other hand, is working just fine. Not that I have much to think about right now, but it's alert and ready for action.

I'm going to go. I can't think of anything else to say right now, so it seems good to stop talking.


Thursday, June 28, 2007

Al Gore Wants to Destroy My Logical Thinking

Tonight, Ace and I watched An Inconvenient Truth. In it Al Gore wants to destroy whatever it is that keeps people from believing what he is saying about Global Warming. And what is keeping me from believing it is my logical thinking. I looked at a lot of the same graphs he did and had a very different opinion of what they said (at least the ones that were actually readable). I saw a very clear cycle in how the earth warms and cools. Ace and I don't really have problems with most of the ways to lower our impact, we want energy efficient appliances and hybrid cars to save us money. We like those ideas. And we think mass public transportation is a good thing. But, we don't believe that there is really the problem that Gore is trying to paint here. And we saw him try to win sympathy with stories from his life that show pain and upset. I'm not happy that his sister died from smoking or that his child was injured by a car (I am giving him the small benefit of the doubt that these things actually occurred, because I know he lies about things). But that doesn't mean that he's telling the truth about what is going on with the earth in regards to the weather.

I say all this to say I'm for us doing good things for the environment, but I'm not going to run around or worry that we're going to be halfway under water because of melting ice caps in the next couple of years. My feeling is that the inconvenient truth for Mr. Gore is that he likes the idea of saving the country or the world and he is causing a lot of fear in a lot of people unnecessarily. I don't want to debate the topic, and I'm sure it's not a fully popular one, but I've now given my opinion on the subject.

Well, I've said a lot of things, but I think I've said everything I need to.


Laughter Keeps Depression at Bay

Film at 11.

Okay, there is no film. You caught me. I made a very, very bad joke (especially since I don't watch the news).

But, watching funny movies has helped keep me from getting very depressed (a break in the rain would probably help more).

So far this week, I've watched Horse Feathers (Marx Brothers, very funny), Duck Soup (Marx Brothers, also very funny), Johnny Dangerously (funny, be sure to watch the trailer for it too), Employee of the Month (slightly older movie with Matt Dillon, great twists at the end, very, very funny), and Happy Endings (somewhat funny, mostly odd, worth seeing if you can see it for free). Tomorrow, Ace and I are going back to Blockbuster (we went Monday, I've watched 5 movies in the past 48 hours).

Oh, and read the post before this one. It's a brief history of me. I just couldn't resist talking about the movies we've watched recently.


A Brief History

Since I started this blog, I haven't really given anyone who's read this much of my history. This has not been intentional, I just forget that I didn't bring over pretty much anyone from my old blog (at least, no one that I know knows me from there other than Ace). So, here is my brief history.

I was born in the early 1980s in Dallas, TX. My parents and I lived there until not long after I turned 7, when we moved to Oklahoma (I'd tell where, but I've got to retain some of my mystery). My parents had my siblings a couple of years later and then divorced when I was 14. I met Ace at 21 and married him at 22 (almost 9 months after meeting). And the last four years I've lived in Tulsa, OK. (Why have almost all the big occasions in my life started at the seven year mark? I guess I should expect something big after turning 28, huh?)

I would give more details, but I'm hoping that this would be vague enough that if my family (who, as far as I know, doesn't know the address of this blog) does stumble across it, they won't fully know it's me. Any more details, and I'm pretty sure I'd give it all away if they ever saw it. I don't know what would happen then. But, since I'm currently on blog #2, I'd like to stop here. I may take this one through a few more incarnations, but I'd like to have only had to start 2 to be able to express myself.

Anyway, that is a very brief history of me.


Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Things I Won't Talk About

The start of today's post will be a list.

1. My current finances (they depress me)
2. The current owners of the house Ace and I will rent and then buy (in less than a year)
3. How crazy most people are (that would just drive me crazy)
4. When I will have children (at least not in person, does anyone really need to know about my reproductive system?)

In other news, I got 3 roses and a card from Ace for our anniversary. We discovered that our garage is too hot in the summer for parking in it, so we will have to try that some other time. But we had some really great sex once we got inside.

I guess that's all for now.


Monday, June 25, 2007


Tomorrow, Ace and I celebrate our anniversary. We'll have been married for 4 years. And we will have made it through 4 years without having an actual fight. Instead, when we used to disagree strongly (that hasn't happened in a while) we would take a short break in our discussion for emotions to cool down (usually me) before resuming rational discussions. That's it. Nothing to complicated.

Anyway, back to tomorrow. Tomorrow night, Ace is taking me out to eat at Red Lobster (and based on the fact that two people told us to get the bread, we will). I am going to get dressed up (possibly without underwear) and he has said something about taking me parking (possibly in our garage, so there will be no potential for cops being involved). Ace is spending most of the day with me, other than an appointment he made before he knew it would be our anniversary. I have no clue what we will do during the day, possibly work on our filing to get that accomplished (is that too boring for an anniversary?).

Well, I've got to clean my laptop, so I'm getting off the computer now.


Saturday, June 23, 2007


From time to time, mostly when I'm feeling somewhat stressed about something, I start to suffer from a bit of insomnia. This is most annoying because it almost always seems to proceed a small bout of depression, or, as I like to think if it, my "my life sucks so now I'm throwing myself a pity party and don't want to move if at all possible" time. And I hate it. I hate feeling like I'm loosing a part of myself. I hate that stress gets to me like this. And I don't feel the need to be on medication to do something about it, because this happens almost never. In fact, I'm not sure how long it's been since I've last had insomnia (it's been a while).

No, I don't want to share what is stressing me out, because I'm really trying hard not to think about it. I'm spending my time concentrating on good things, like the Marx Brothers or Dave Barry's Guide to Guys (this is a really funny movie, which you should rent, and if Dave Barry wants to pay me for this little advertisement of his movie, he can leave me his e-mail address in the comments and I will get back to him). Because, hopefully, with enough laughter I can stop the clouds I feel rolling in my mind before they can get here and do some damage. If not, there is always the possibility of me getting some alcohol and posting while slightly tipsy (which means that I may have to re-type everything 5 times, because I want things spelled correctly. Oh, and I may wear less clothing to write than I normally do). I'm glad that I'm a happy tipsy person and don't try to go any further than tipsy.

Well, now that I've rambled on for a while, I'm going to go do something else that I wouldn't normally do at 3 am (because normally I'm sleeping).


Thursday, June 21, 2007

Movies, a Nap, and Spending Time with Ace

Okay, you can probably figure out what I've been doing the past two days based on my post title. Mostly, I've been spending time with Ace watching movies. We've watched Dr. No, The Spy Who Loved Me (can you tell I like Bond movies?), The Dukes of Hazzard (the movie, not the TV show), and most Weird Al's videos. And a little while ago, I took a nap.

Well, now that you are all caught up on the movies I've watched, because I know you care about that, I'm going to move onto my question for today.

Where have all the good drivers gone? Ace and I had a couple of errands to do after going to the chiropractor (where my mid-back finally popped some), and we saw at least 3 illegal (I'm pretty sure the third thing is illegal) things before we got home. We saw someone make an illegal u-turn at a light (and they were either mad at the people who turned behind us (we and they were making a legal right hand turn where the guy was trying to make a u-turn) or the people who turned behind us were mad at them. Either way, I'm pretty sure there were almost 2 different collisions at that time (us with the u-turn person and the people behind us with the u-turn person). Then, we saw someone make a left hand turn from a right hand lane. The last rather stupid move had someone apparently couldn't follow the exit from the interstate to the street and almost merged back into the lane we were in right into the passenger side near where I was sitting.

My other question is how is it hard for some people to see our rather big tan SUV? It's not like tan blends in with everything, so how do they miss it?

Well, I'm going to go, because my questions are out there released from my mind.


Tuesday, June 19, 2007

New Mouse

I am really, really happy because my husband bought me a new mouse for my computer. It is exactly like my old mouse, except it works all the time (the cord isn't messed up). My old mouse, which now resides in the trash, had some problems and would only work if I held the cord in the right way. But, while we were doing something business related at Office Depot, we got me a new mouse.

And to celebrate, and calm my stomach, I'm having ice cream.


Blogging in My Head

I find that when I have time to think, I spend most of it writing a post in my head. Of course, when it actually becomes time to write on a post, I can't figure out what to write about, because most of what I want to say was said earlier in my mind. And the topics are varied, and hopefully interesting. Recently, I've thought of: 1. posting about the removal of my wisdom teeth. 2. The length of my average period and what my body seems to currently be doing. 3. Why is the only phrase I learned Spanish class in high school that randomly pops into my mind Donde esta la biblioteca (and why I don't care about where the library is)?

Okay, I'll admit that #3 hasn't ever been thought about to write on here, but I do seriously want to know the answer to why it is the only phrase that randomly pops up. The reasons I don't care where the library is change based on where I am. Either I already know where the library is, so the question is stupid, or I won't be where I am long enough for it to matter where the library is located.

I'm going to go. I've got better things to do than ponder about libraries in Spanish.


Monday, June 18, 2007

Busy Weekend

Well, this weekend was rather busy, mostly for watching movies. Ace and I got to spend some time talking, which is nice since he'll be busy for most of today. We watched Ghost Rider (great movie, I want to own it), Mr. Fix-It (good movie, unrealistic ending), Glory Road (loved this movie, I wondered why we waited so long to rent it, interviews with the actual team the movie was about, I want to own it), and The Dukes of Hazzard: The Beginning (funny, but I don't think Bo or Luke Duke were ever quite that stupid).

Oh, yeah, on the pregnancy thing... Pregnancy test #3 was negative. Then, 17 days late, I got my period (yesterday). So, yeah, I'm totally not pregnant yet. And I'm trying not to lose hope or feel like there is something wrong with me (or Ace).

So, now you know why I didn't write this weekend. I was busy watching movies and getting my period.

I've got to go, we have a chiropractor's appointment.


Friday, June 15, 2007

Adventures in Couch Sleeping

Tonight, in a few hours, I will go over to a friend's house to "baby-sit" her kids. Her children are old enough not to really need me for anything, and will in fact be in bed when I get there and should sleep until their parents return home. So, I am going over there to sit on their couch, read, and maybe take a nap. I'm hoping to finish The Hobbit while I'm there, because I should be at the good part (with the dragon slaying and all). I may take something else with me, on the off chance that I actually finish my book without deciding to sleep until it's time for Ace to pick me up (he'll be with the parent's after he drops me off). The last time I did this, it was about 6 months ago. I expect tonight to be the same experience as last time. I take reading material and liquid, read for a while, then sleep until right before they get there.

If there is anyone else who needs me to do that kind of baby-sitting, let's get to know each other and we'll see if I'll do it. I like sitting in other people's living rooms and reading for a while. Just let me know where the bathroom is.

I forgot to tell you yesterday, but the pregnancy test came up negative again. How long after a missed period does one go to a doctor if they keep getting negative pregnancy tests?


Thursday, June 14, 2007

Cramps, Television, and Forums

Can you guess the question that goes with that title? (Leave your thoughts, this one is an interactive post)

And while cramps normally come during my period, but that's not what is happening. Instead, I've got cramps from walking like a stripper and taking my shirt off in a sexy manner. Darn that Oprah- teaching me about sexy! And I really need to start doing some crunches, but slowly.

My chiropractor did not like how my back was doing this morning. It refused to move in the mid-back area, which is tense and was sore to the touch this morning. Between that and my bra making it hard to breathe, I decided to go without a bra for most of the day (which will probably make me really look forward to going back to the chiropractor on Monday).

I'm going to go back watching TV, because it makes me laugh.


Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Learning About Feeling Sexy

So, I'm currently watching Oprah (because the Tulsa area shows it twice a day for unknown reasons to me) and she's talking about women getting their inner sex pot to come out. Not that Ace doesn't completely make me feel sexy, but he would love it if I just felt sexy all on my own (lately, my body has felt too icky, sore, and slightly nauseous for feeling sexy). Of course, I'm hoping that my current physical feelings have to do with the lack of a period (tomorrow, I'll be taking another pregnancy test).

I am convinced that at some time I need to let someone who has better fashion sense pick out some clothes for me (but the shoes MUST be flats, my feet HATE heels). I'm sure I would look much better that way, not that I look bad now. And it would be nice to see what someone else would pick out for my frame. If I could get my body back to the weight I was when Ace and I got married, I know that most clothes would hang very well on my body. The only other slight hurdle I have right now is a 34 H chest, which when I'm done having children will totally have my boobs reduced and lifted.

Well, now that I've shared more than I expected to, I'm going to go pay more attention to Oprah.


Finding Something to Talk About

I have been wracking my brains the past two days trying to figure out what I want to talk about. I don't want to be one of those women who obsess over whether or not they are pregnant (12 days since my period was supposed to start and nothing but 2 negative pregnancy tests). I didn't feel like sharing my weird dreams right now (all about extended family members I'm not currently in contact with). And I thought talking about Paris Hilton would just be stupid (she should serve her 45 days and let everyone move on already). Besides, I don't usually get pulled into all the drama that surrounds celebraties (I did sadly care way more than I want to admit about who the father of Anna Nicole Smith's baby was). I didn't really feel like writing about what I've been looking at online (I've been slightly obsessed with Firefly right now).

So, because I had some very clear cut things I didn't want to talk about, it was hard to find something to talk about. And I still haven't found anything yet, I just decided to write about my indecision. And catch everyone up on my wait for it to be Thursday when I feel I can take another pregnancy test (1 a week until I either get a positive, reach some point that I feel I must see a doctor, or start a period, at least that's my plan).

I'm going to go, because I don't seem to have much else to say for now. I hope to have something more interesting tomorrow.


Saturday, June 9, 2007

Moving Quickly Through the Day

I slept in this morning. And by that I mean, I got up with only a little more than an hour actually left in the morning. Then I watched some cartoons (Larry Boy and VeggieTales). Then Ace and I watched Barb Wire and The Naked Mile (the latest movie in the American Pie series). After all of that, we realized it was 4 in the afternoon, which meant that the day practically flew by, at least for me.

I've spent most of this evening, after church at 7, looking at stuff related to Firefly, a totally cool TV show that was cruelly cancelled before it had a full season and then went on to have a hit movie based on it. Ace and I love this show and the movie (Serenity) that followed. In fact, I blame him on me spending lots of time looking at stuff related to it, because he was watching our DVDs when I got up and not too long before we went to church.

So, all of that has made my day move rather quickly. And soon, but not quite yet, it will be over. I do feel the need to go gather some comics and read them, because I haven't done that the past few days.

Okay, I'm off to read comics, and possibly do some crossword puzzles.


Friday, June 8, 2007

Celebrating Ace's Birthday

Ace and I celebrated his birthday today by having sex. We also ate some more cake. I am hoping that when I take another pregnancy test it will come back positive, because that would be the best birthday gift I could give him this year. I've joked that if I am pregnant then it will also be his anniversary gift (our anniversary is later this month). I doubt it would be, but it's possible.

Well, Ace wants us to watch Children of Men, so I'm going to go do that now.


Thursday, June 7, 2007

Happy Birthday Ace!!!

Today is Ace's birthday. He's a whole whopping 27. We celebrated today with cake and a Cookie Dough Blast from Sonic (and I got him a card). We'll do a real celebration with a dinner out sometime this weekend, probably. We spent the day doing business related activities.

I read this morning that the 5 high school graduates I mentioned the other day were given their diplomas by the school. The school officials kind of got into trouble too. There is a small part of me that wants to point out that they didn't give them back until after I wrote about it, but I doubt anyone of consequence to that situation saw my post.

In fertility news, I need to make sure I don't read about how fertility decreases in men and women starting at 26, because it tends to make my mind freak out. But, I'm still not on my period, which should be a good sign. We just have to find a store that actually sells pregnancy tests (I didn't find one at a local grocery store while we were picking up cake earlier, so I have to wait until tomorrow to take a second test).

At the same store that didn't seem to have pregnancy tests, I saw someone who was letting their child pee on the sidewalk in front of the store. There was a bathroom not that far inside the store, but they couldn't be bothered with actually getting out of their car (sitting right by the kid who was peeing) to take their child to the bathroom. It was sad, really.

Okay, enough of my random stuff. Leave a message wishing Ace a happy birthday (even though it will pretty much be over by the time you read this).


Wednesday, June 6, 2007

American Pie Trilogy

Ace and I have now seen the American Pie trilogy. Um, I'm not fully sure who the first one was for (okay, I know it's for teenage boys, but still). The second one was better than the first, and I'm not sure how I feel about American Wedding. There were some parts I liked, but there were definitely some things I didn't like.

In non-movie news, I am still waiting for my body to do something. Ace suggested that I take a pregnancy test yesterday, so I did but it came up negative. And yet, I'm still not on my period, which oddly seem to start in the past when I've taken a pregnancy test (like a couple of hours after taking it), so I am taking it as possible that the pregnancy test was wrong.

Um, yeah. That's all I have for now.


Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Music and Lyrics

Tonight, Ace and I watched Music and Lyrics. While I could tell how it was following the normal romantic comedy plot, it was very enjoyable and felt very realistic. And the songs were fantastic. I kept saying, while we were watching it, that I loved the main characters and how they interacted. I found them adorable and cute. Ace even said that we have to buy this movie.

I was thinking earlier about what I do like about travel (which isn't too much). I love looking out of the window of an airplane while it is landing and seeing how everything looks like this really big miniature set (except that the cars all move). It is interesting to see them get bigger, and see pools that barely look like my finger tip will fit in that I know I could swim in when actually down on the ground. I also like seeing the clouds that look like cotton balls hanging in midair.

Well, I have crosswords to do.


Monday, June 4, 2007

Graduation Insanity

I read a lot of information that relates to parenting, mostly so that when I become a parent I know what to expect (as much as that is possible). Well, the past month, I've read several articles about high school graduations. I read that in Tulsa, several of the public schools have the graduation around a week or two before the end of school, mostly so that they can control the students and their families during the graduation. I also read of 5 students who were being denied their diplomas because their families cheered for them. Then I read about some family or friends of a student who got arrested for cheering at the ceremony.

Ace and I are wondering when the celebration of achieving a goal turned into the government (these were all public schools, I believe) trying to control the reactions of excited people. I wonder why we have all of these traditions that must be kept during the graduation ceremony (of course, I mean the long, boring speeches that are forever the same). Why do we seem to think that because these have been done for a while they should continue? I realize there is some comfort in things staying the same, but this kind of thing takes it to ridiculous extremes.

I remember that when I graduated from high school (8 years ago), it was after the year ended. There were some people who made noise, excited for their loved one. My graduating class, of over 400 people, all behaved ourselves well and did nothing to make our school look bad. We were proud of our accomplishment, but we wanted to treat the ceremony with the dignity we felt it deserved (plus, it was being video taped). There were no threats of not getting our diploma if we didn't behave (or having to do community service to receive it), and no one was kicked out or arrested (as far as I know). We all just smiled, walked across the stage, shook hands, got our pictures taken, and went back to our seats. And we got our diplomas about a week later. It was simple, we weren't punished for someone else's behavior. Nor were we allowed to walk across a stage without having earned the diploma.

In other news, it's been a long, busy day with no sign of a period showing up. We are hopeful.


Sunday, June 3, 2007

Day 3 of Moviefest '07

Today, I watched Not Anther Teen Movie and Drowning Mona. In fact, I just recently finished watching Drowning Mona. And now, I'm listening to podcasts that I downloaded earlier. The one I'm currently listening to is the show Veronica Mars, which has been cruelly canceled (and I sadly missed season 3, which didn't help). And moviefest '07 is over now.

While I'm done with my movie watching, I'm still waiting to find out if my body is just messing with me. I'm really, really hoping that I'm pregnant, which should be obvious to anyone who has read this past week. But I refuse to get my hopes up to high until my period has been at least a week late, which is not until Thursday.

Okay, I think I'm going to go read some comics and possibly some Sherlock Holmes.


Saturday, June 2, 2007

Day 2 of Moviefest '07

Today, I watched 3 movies (the last one twice). I've now seen the original Pink Panther, The Pink Panther Strikes Again, Kung Pow: Enter the Fist, and Date Movie (last night) since Ace has left town. I would suggest that if you ever get a chance to see Kung Pow: Enter the Fist also try to see it with what was originally said. Unless you speak Mandarin Chinese, you won't understand half of it, but the half in English is hilarious, even if it has nothing to do with the plot of the movie.

Other than watching movies, I've done some laundry and laid around enjoying myself. And making it patiently through another day with no start to my period and waiting for it to be one day closer to when Ace and I have determined it is a better time to take a pregnancy test. And watching all these movies has helped distract me from that.

Well, I have things to do, like watching movies and reading comics, so I guess I should get on that.


Friday, June 1, 2007

Waiting (Im)patiently

Well, I'm still waiting for my body to decide whether or not I'm pregnant. And I'm trying to be patient about it. Right now, I couldn't say one way or the other about the possibility of me being pregnant. My body is not giving off any clues on the subject either. So, I'm waiting impatiently for it to be a week from yesterday so I can take a pregnancy test if nothing changes before then. And I'd blame stress, but what stress? Nothing's been stressful lately.

Ace is in KC (he should be there by now). He isn't sure if he's coming back tomorrow night or Sunday afternoon, but I'm expecting him to be gone until Sunday personally. I've got plenty of movies to keep me company while he's gone (6 we rented plus everything we own). I went for all comedies when I picked out the movies, because I want to spend my weekend laughing.

I'm going to go back to enjoying the deleted/extended/alternate scenes from the movie I just watched.


Thursday, May 31, 2007

Thinking and Talking

Ace and I have been discussing what my opinions are if we don't get me pregnant sometime in the (and then it trails off to ... with no time frame suggested). I am pushing for us to adopt. I'd currently prefer not to have to deal with medicine and testing just so that I have children that are made up of DNA that they share with both of us. Ace is okay with either option, but I currently feel that if it doesn't show up as a problem with anything but his sperm I will feel like there is something wrong with me even if no problem is found. So, I will wait until I feel like it's time to just move on to adoption if pregnancy doesn't happen. I have almost always had a plan to adopt at least one child, so I've already studied adoption out some (while in college, which is odd because who does that? Me, for a research paper).

And after Ace and I move into our new house, we will be getting a dog. That should help me some with the overly loud ticking clock that I hear (I'm only 26, I still have over a decade in which to get pregnant without it being considered high risk). Ace would, if I OKed it, get a dog tomorrow, I think. He wants to get a puppy more than I do, and I would really like to have one. And not just so I know I'll always have someone to talk to around the house, because that just seems sad.

Tomorrow, Ace goes to Kansas City for a seminar about real estate. I am staying home this time, partly because KC is not exactly a tourist destination. And I'm still adjusting to being back from Florida (I have laundry to fold and put away from that trip still). I'm going to spend the weekend watching comedy movies and reading Catch 22, which I started before our trip out of town (I'm sure the library would like it back soon). I may even get up enough energy and enthusiasm to clean the bathrooms in our current house, but I'm not going to hold my breath on that.

Well, I should probably get to my crossword puzzles, with a little reading on the side maybe, so I'll go to bed before it gets too late.


Keeping Up My Hope

My extended family, or at least several members of it, blog. This is a wonderful way to keep up with their lives. Unfortunately for me, many of my cousins who blog (all female, which isn't surprising since most of my cousins are female) are mothers or going to be mothers soon. And I'm genuinely happy for them. But there is a part of me that hurts to see it. My arms ache to have a child in them, and yet that seems to be far off. And it doesn't help that my pregnant cousin who blogs just posted that she's having a boy while I'm waiting impatiently for one of two things to happen: 1. I start my period or 2. I've waited long enough to be able to reliably take a pregnancy test.

I am "supposed" to start my period today, but my body occasionally likes to wait a few days (or a week) to start to freak me out. And while I'm waiting to get pregnant (without medical intervention), I have to try to keep up my hope by reminding myself that every month I'm not pregnant is a month closer to one I will be. And it's hard to keep that mind set up for very long. And, since I'm waiting, I really don't feel comfortable having any alcohol, which part of me really wants to have.

Oh, and with regards to my last post, I'm not trying to push my beliefs off on anyone else, I just felt the need to share my love of that particular hymn. It meant something to me.

Maybe next time I'll share the long list of advice I'm starting to gather for my children.