Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Sleeping In

Well, 3 days into my new routine, and I've slept in (10-20 minutes) 2 of those days. I've not intended to when I went to bed the night before, but needing a few extra minutes has caused it to happen. Of course, having a full bladder does encourage getting up and out of bed, so I couldn't sleep in too much.

Ace started training earlier this evening to be a mortgage consultant/originator. He's got 7 more classes (Tuesdays and Thursdays for most of the month). Which means that I'm spending those evenings watching TV and hanging out with Guillermo. Of course the only difference between that and the other nights of the week is that Ace won't be here with me (and we usually watch movies when he is here).

On the movie front, we've watched Apocalypto (long, in Mayan, and Ace and I spent what felt like half the movie wondering what it was about), Rumor Has It (good, funny, sweet, and thought provoking), Payback (sometimes, it's nice to watch things randomly blow up), and Monty Python's Meaning of Life (funny, random - which is the Monty Python style, and entertaining - at least to me). And last night I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (I love the songs) and V for Vendetta (a movie I enjoy, even though I'm not fully sure why).

I've been reading some too. Yesterday, I read Can't Wait to Get to Heaven by Fannie Flagg (at least it was the version in Reader's Digest Select Editions book). Today, I've worked on The Darwin Awards IV: Intelligent Design (and I added the Darwin Awards movie to our queue on Blockbuster's website) and I've started Welcome to the World, Baby Girl! by Fannie Flagg. Ace and I went to the library where I was hoping to find Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe by Fannie Flagg, but it wasn't on the shelf.

My only other news is that I've been tired and sex has been fairly constantly on my brain lately. It's been odd. I could be tired from trying to shift my schedule some (at this point, I'd be happy to keep myself getting up before 9:30 and work from there). I'm thinking the sex thing is probably coming from the rampant baby lust I've got from hearing my biological clock ticking loudly in my head for the past 2 years (not that I think that is all of it, just a large part of it). I do seem to have a greater interest in sex in August, so it could just be a preprogrammed response to the time of year.

Well, I think I shall go back to my book.


Saturday, July 28, 2007

Making a Plan

Ace and I have just set ourselves up a plan for what we are wanting to do daily to make things better for us. We are going to start walking around one of the local malls to get exercise in. I'm going to start getting up at a regular time (which will get earlier until I'm regularly getting up at 8:00 am instead of somewhere between 9 and 11). We are going to spend time studying the Bible and praying together everyday. I will watch only 2 hours of TV during normal business hours (Judge Alex and The People's Court, from 2 to 4). I'm going to spend more time reading books/magazines and less time online. This should also get me doing chores more regularly and with less time from start to finish.

We used to actually do most of this stuff (we even worked out in a gym regularly for about 4 months). And we liked how things went when we did. I'm not really sure why we stopped, other than we let other things become more important. With us walking again, I should get back down to the weight I would be best at (110-115 lbs. or 115-120 lbs., instead of 150-155 lbs.). We've determined it's not my eating habits as much as my exercise habits that got me weighing a good 30-35 pounds more than I should. Since I'm not walking all over a college campus (lugging around heavy textbooks), I've gained a little too much weight. Starting walking again should help me drop most of it (and hopefully decrease my bust size some too). Joining a gym is planned in the near future.

Well, I'm going to go. We're going to spend some time in prayer tonight, and I need to get ready for that.


Dreaming of Others

So, the past 3 nights I've had rather vivid and memorable dreams. I mentioned the dream about the Crane brothers from Frasier (And I know that Niles ends up married to Daphne before the end of the series, so it's totally illogical. That, and I'm married already too). 2 nights ago, I dreamed that I was Veronica Mars and in my dream Weevil and Mac were dating. It was a dream that came out of no where (we haven't been watching Veronica Mars lately). Oh, and there was this weird college retreat where the students were pretending to be animals, but in male-female pairs (no sex going on, because my dreams only have me having sex). I was not actually supposed to be there, and was trying to convince the professor in charge to let me just observe (while not being totally weirded out).

Last night, I dreamed of another blogger. I was staying in her home (for some unknown reason) and that was apparently not the fist time I had done so. And I had relatives visiting her house (we were all eating Christmas cookies in March or April, it was very random. I even dreamed about her sons (but not her husband, oddly enough). I don't remember if Ace was there, but he should have been.

In dog news (since there is nothing to report baby wise in the slightest), Ace is the one who feeds Guillermo, plays fetch with him, etc. But Guillermo still stares at me while I'm eating as if I'm just going to give him the rest of my food (which is really stupid when I've just started eating). He seems to think that I will be the weak link on giving him food at the table if he stares at me long enough (which ends up with Ace telling him to leave me alone often when I'm eating). Guillermo seems to love me, despite the fact that I have little to do with him. Ace thinks that all male dogs seem to prefer women to men. I like Guillermo, but I deal with him strictly on my own terms (which means as little fetch as possible).

You are now caught up on my random dreams and my dog's love for me. I've got nothing else to write about right now, so I'm going to go back to my day.


Thursday, July 26, 2007

What Dreams Come

I'm beginning to think that I have the weirdest dreams in the world (when I'm not subconsciously dealing with something). Last night, I dreamed that I was dating Frasier Crane and then Niles Crane (from the show Frasier). And, there was a trip to Vegas (where I spent all my time in a hotel room, fully clothed, with Niles Crane). What does that kind of dream mean? Especially when you consider that I haven't watched Frasier in a long time. And does it have anything to do with me feeling tired all the time (I'm not pregnant, I just finished my period)?

Yesterday, I had a great day. I slept for 10 hours the night before (so I woke up feeling wonderful). I got to relax for most of the day. I got some chores done (laundry and dishes). I got to see Cocoanuts (Marx brothers movie, great for laughs), a couple of interviews with some of the Marx brothers, and a couple of episodes of Penn & Teller's Bullshit!, which made me laugh. And I enjoyed the praise and worship service at church (I left feeling peaceful and full of joy). Oh, and then there was the strawberry ice cream. A wonderful day all around.

I think I'll go back to reading about episodes of the Simpsons. Not intelligent, I know, but it makes me smile.


Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Sometimes I Want to Be Alone (With My Friends)

Tonight, Ace and I had a friend, who I'll call Janet (not her real name, I never use real names for people), and her kids over. I'll call her kids Jack and Jill. We attempted to have a grown-up conversation, but it was slightly hard with her kids wanting to pop up and have her attention. Her kids are cute, I think they are great kids, but I was ready to shoo them out of my house about 30 minutes before they ended up leaving. I wanted to keep Janet around to talk more though. Every time we get to talk with her, we find out more about her life before we met her, so it's fun to talk with her. As Jack and Jill are young (5 and 4), they had to get home and go to bed. But they had some fun playing with Guillermo and running around in our backyard before they left.

It's felt like a long day. I know it hasn't been any longer than any other day, but it's felt like it was longer. That could come from spending a couple of hours in a car today (which definitely wouldn't help the feeling), but I'm not sure that was all of it. I'm pretty sure tomorrow will be better.

I'm going to do something that no longer requires much brain usage. I'm feeling somewhat tired.


Monday, July 23, 2007

Out and About

Ace and I have been visiting my dad in Arkansas. As our visit comes to a close, I'm convinced that at some point, I must see The Simpsons Movie. I enjoy watching the show sometimes, but I feel the need to see the movie when I can.

To totally switch topics, there was a time I tried to write a book. I actually got seriously started on it, planned out quite a bit of it, but stopped for reasons I don't remember now. I think it had to do with school and homework. It was going to be a romance novel & mystery. I don't know if most people would have found it to be very good, but I really was enjoying writing it. Unfortunately for me, I've lost everything I had on that story, so I really have no way to go back to writing it.

Yeah, I'm done with the randomness now. I'm off to do something else.


Friday, July 20, 2007

Things I've Learned This Past Week

1. My dog snores. Not loudly or regularly, but randomly and rather softly. But, he snores.
2. Mosquitoes made it through Oklahoma's rough winter. The ice and snow storms weren't bad enough to get rid of the mosquitoes.
3. Five days is long enough to get my hopes up, but not so high that they are crushed when I get a negative pregnancy test and my period within the span of 30 hours.
4. I may use a fake name for me, but I use my dog's real name on my blog (who is going to drive through Tulsa calling out for Guillermo and expect only my dog to answer?).
5. It's hard to own a dog sometimes. Like when you want to laugh at something funny and accidentally wake up the dog who isn't used to sleeping outside (but will have to do it through Monday night).
6. Right now, it's so not the heat, it is totally the humidity.
7. What you think will be a 5 minute trip to drop off a garage door opener can turn into a 45 minute trip that includes a look at a friend's shoes.
8. I'm going to enjoy having a quiet house as long as I can, but I'm looking forward to having kids.
9. Even though I'm ready for Guillermo to be past the puppy stage, I still want to get a puppy next year.
10. Some people keep choosing the wrong guys to date. They deserve better. And, while a hug won't fix it, they deserve a hug too.
11. Sometimes a free dog does not come with everything you need, even when you get food, bowls, and a toy with the dog.
12. I like to write lists. They make for easy posts.

Well, now you know some of the things I've learned this past week. Maybe I'll do this again sometime.


Wednesday, July 18, 2007

We Have a Dog (and a Freezer)

Well, we decided to take our friend's dog. His name is Guillermo. He's a big dog. I don't think he quite knows what to make of his new home yet, but he'll figure it out. He likes to play fetch and his nails click on the laminate in our kitchen. He was free, so we couldn't beat the price. I am looking forward to getting into a bigger house, because he is a big dog (around 110 pounds) and that will give him more room to move around without possibly bumping into things.

Our freezer got here before noon today. That was cool, because it was scheduled to get here between 12:45 and 2:45. It's all plugged in and cold by now.

And that is the big news in our house today. You're all caught up.


Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Random Power Outages

Today, for a couple of minutes, our power went out. We don't know why (we think they may have been working on the lines nearby). It was just odd. That's happened a few times since we've moved in. I wonder if there is problems with power surges or something. Usually, it is fixed quickly. The times that it isn't, it's usually pouring rain outside so I completely understand it taking time. It only goes off randomly like that maybe every 6 months or so.

Ace worked on clearing space in our garage for the freezer. It's amazing how much stuff we keep out there that stack up in a small area when it needs to. We did have to rearrange where we plugged our garage door opener in, but we'll finish hanging the cord soon (with Ace doing most of the work).

I guess that's all for now. I just felt the need to wonder about the power outage.


Time Marches On

Well, I am now 2 days late for my period. Of course, after last month, I'm not holding my breath. But I am still wondering and waiting for it to be next Sunday. Trying to keep busy.

Ace and I bought a freezer today. A big (19.7 cubic feet) chest freezer. It will sit (after it is delivered Wednesday) in our garage. We are hoping to fill it next Wednesday with food. We are going to fill it with what little is in our fridge's freezer (shouldn't take up hardly any space) so that we can clean out the freezer in the fridge. Then, we plan on moving what is in the fridge to the freezer, so that we can clean out the rest of the fridge. And then we can move almost everything back.

Oh, and Ace and I may be getting a yellow Lab soon. We have a friend who had one and couldn't keep it, gave it to her uncle who now can't keep it, so we may be getting it. We have been planning on getting a yellow Lab at some point. I wanted to wait a little longer (before the phone call tonight), but it should work out. Plus, this way our friend would still get to see her dog.

And if that weren't enough excitement, we're going back to cleaning closets tomorrow (we have 2 closets left to clean, because everything else is pretty well organized). I can sense you excitement already. But, after this, we will be done organizing for a little while.

Well, I have to go. I have a book to read and water to drink (so that my husband will be happy).


Friday, July 13, 2007

Things I Love

5 things I love, but am not sure why I love them.

1. You've Got Mail - I love this movie, and part of it is the children's bookstore. I love the look and feel of it all. But I'm not sure why I like the story.
2. red and black licorice - I love both kinds, which is odd since most people have a preference for one or the other.
3. Logan Echolls from Veronica Mars - he vacillates from bad to good so often that I'm not sure why I love him.
4. romance novels - I enjoy them, but don't know why. They are not realistic, but I enjoy devouring them.
5. Buffy the Vampire Slayer - I like how empowered the women are/become, but I'm not sure why I enjoy the series so much over all.

There you have it. A random 5 things to let you know a little more about me.


Thursday, July 12, 2007

Odd Feelings

This has been a week of ups and downs. I got a wonderful massage on Tuesday (the full enjoyment was slightly ruined when I got stressed by the collections call that afternoon). I cried over spilled spinach in my sink yesterday. And today, I am proud of myself for doing a lot of chores around the house. I got all my dishes clean (for a few hours), I got all my laundry put away (not a hard task), and on the fun side, I had sex with Ace. All in all, a good day. And yet, there is a part of me that feels off. I can't figure it out. Like I'm supposed to say or do something, but I can't quite figure it out. It's unsettling.

I've made it through most of the 2 weeks between best time for conception and when my period is supposed to start (Sunday, based on the change of dates last month). My breasts were tender earlier today, but that is somewhat common right before my period, so I'm trying not to read anything into that. But it's hard. It's hard to stop my hopes from rising so they won't be dashed. It's hard to try to stay realistic. Yes, we have a better chance this month because I finally got good information on when it would be best to try. Then I have the word "but" ring in with "but it may not have happened yet." The waiting is the cruelest part.

Can I go back to my fantasy that I will have a positive pregnancy test this month? Because that fantasy could come true.


Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Collections Calling

Ace and I are in a slight financial bottom right now. I'm not going to go through the details, because I'm trying to avoid anything remotely depressing. Suffice to say we have some collections people calling us. Ace talked to a woman for at least 15 minutes today who seemed to be missing the logical parts of her brain. She kept repeating the same things over and over, in an attempt to get a post-dated check (we know we have some money coming sometime this month, but aren't sure when that is yet). She wasn't getting anywhere with demanding answers from Ace and thought that point out my credit would get hurt too would change what he had to say (how many different ways can you say I don't have the money right now?). Ace ended up just hanging up on her after it became obvious that she wasn't really paying any attention to what he had to say. We've already told them several times that we will call them when we know the date we will be paid and give them a post-dated check at that time. Of course, they don't like hearing that.

Well, I've depressed myself some now. I'm going to go find non-food type ways of easing my mind.


Monday, July 9, 2007

Cleaning to Forget

Today, I read a powerful post on I'm Doing the Best I Can (see link over there ->). Dawn was talking about her father (Father of Mine). And a lot of that post reminded me of my mother. Not the physical parts, my mother never beat me, but the emotional feelings. I've not talked to my mother in over a year. And it's brought me incredible peace. I had gotten to the point of not being able to believe anything she had said, even though part of me wanted to. I pushed past the belief that was ingrained in me that we must keep our parents in our lives because they are related to us. And it was hard. I didn't end up just cutting her off, but I cut off my extended family on her side too (which is most of my family). I also cut off most of the contact I have with my siblings. I now find out very small snippets from my dad and from my sister's blogs (when she updates them).

In order to push past the painful feelings, I turned to working on cleaning and organizing my house. And it worked for a little bit. I have 2 nice looking closets, almost all of our blankets are folded and put away. I know where all my shoes are (and they look nice all paired up in the closet). My spare room is ready for the massage table that will briefly occupy it tomorrow (I get a massage tomorrow!). And now that I'm relaxing some, the feelings are returning. They aren't as strong, and I'm thankful for that.

Dawn mentioned that she dreams of her father, and I also dream of my mother. Not often, and it's gotten to where there isn't anger in the dreams when she's around, but I wonder why she is there. I am glad the anger I felt for her has stopped, it wasn't healthy and shocked me with how intense it was. It has also made it easier to forgive her. I occasionally remember some happy memory that includes her, and part of me wants to call her to let her know until I remember that calling her would just end up in pain. Those memories are somewhat bittersweet now.

Anyway, I'm going to go do something else. So that I will hopefully have better thoughts.


Saturday, July 7, 2007

Movies, Movies Everywhere, What Shall We Watch

So, Ace and I have just finished watching most of season 1 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer (we missed 2 episodes because we didn't find them on disk one). We've been watching them slowly, and through getting them in the mail. We got to see disk one and then the first half of season 1 of 21 Jump Street, so it's been interesting keeping track of two different series (hopefully we'll get the other half of 21 Jump Street season 1 soon). We've also watched Weird Al Live from his Running with Scissors tour. Very fun and the new voice-overs for the educational films were funny too. We watched Farce of the Penguins last night. It was funny, but not something I would expect most kids to watch. The only other movie that I know for sure we've watched is April's Shower, which was interesting, funny, and very very odd.

After watching movies most of the day, I think I'm going to go take a bath. It'll feel good.


Thursday, July 5, 2007

How We Met

I'm not talking about how any of my readers (the few of you that there are) got here, because other than Ace I have no clue. I'm talk about how Ace and I met (a story that most of my family doesn't know, but is rather interesting).

Ace, who I have to start with because he actually traveled more than I did for us to be able to meet, came down from Tulsa to celebrate his grandmother's birthday with her, his parents (they drove in their own car, separate from Ace), and at least one of his brothers. I have no clue what they did that day, but Ace's brother (who was just my friend at the time) invited him to go to a get together with the college/young singles group from his church. At first, Ace wasn't going to go, but he decided that he would since it was just burgers and fun.

Meanwhile, I was trying to figure out what to wear, hating all my clothes, and not at all interested in guys. I had recently had a guy express some interest in me, but he was also actively seeking out other girls he thought he might like (he was supposedly searching for a wife). This guy and I had no actual relationship, but he could have mentioned to me that he was still talking to other girls too (that part is just a side note and really has nothing to do with the story). Anyway, I was wanting to hang out with my friends and be cheered up.

After I got to the get together (with several other people) I discovered my hopes were probably not going to come true, because there was a football game on that almost everyone was watching. I, personally, do not like football, so I was rather disappointed. I decided to sit a little ways away from the game and just relax. I noticed Ace when walking through the living room, mostly because he was the only person there I had never seen before. After a little while, some of the group who isn't as fond of football came over and started talking with me, including Ace's brother. Ace followed his brother over, mostly because he didn't care about the game either, and wanted to know who his brother was talking to.

Eventually, most of the group who was talking with me went somewhere else, leaving me alone with Ace. I noticed that he had finished his drink (I was also trying to see his name, since it was on his cup) and I offered to show him where he could refill his cup. He accepted my offer and followed me (according to him, it was partly so he could check out my ass). Ace and I talked a little more after we got done with getting drinks and then we played cards with his brother and another friend. The group started out with Ace and his brother playing on the same team, but Ace pointed out that since they knew each other well they probably shouldn't be teamed up. So, I made his brother switch places with me so Ace and I were on the same team. We only got through 3 hands of Spades before it was time for us to go, but we felt the chemistry starting then and it hasn't stopped yet.

And now you know the tale of how Ace and I met.


Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Advice for Everyone (I Guess)

Earlier, I promised to share the advice I'm writing for my children/nieces/nephews/ anyone else. Here is part one of that advice.

Don’t ever fully grow up. This advice is one of the most important pieces of advice I could possibly give you, especially since so much of the world needs to learn it. This will keep you looking young for longer than you think it will as the truly young at heart look younger than they are.

Always try to look at something as a child does each day.

Listen to God. This is especially important when your mind and your heart say two different things (God speaks to your heart). If it’s God, it won’t change (and God has a really big time table).

Always, and I do mean always, keep your checkbook balanced. This will save you more problems than you realize.

Read. Read a lot of books. Try new genres. Try new authors. Explore. This will teach you more words (meanings and spellings) than you could ever imagine.

Don’t read the newspaper, except the comics. More importantly, don’t watch the news. You can find out the important things that are happening on the internet. And, there are many more happy stories there.

Education is important. Having said that, remember that there are many kinds of education. Some can be taught by others, which is the best way to learn when possible. Some can only be learned by doing, which can sometimes hurt. Don’t shy away from the lesson; it is there for a reason.

Not everyone you are related to is supposed to be in your life. Sometimes, it is better to create your own family. Listen to your heart to find out when that is. This is obviously the case when if it were anyone else people would encourage you to break off contact.

Writing in a Public Venue

Writing like this is an interesting thing. I never know what will get anyone's attention. And sometimes it is the most mundane of things (or seems to be mundane to me). I'm not upset about it, it's just that it always seems to be the topics I figure no one will care about. Things like cleaning my bathrooms, which is less interesting in my mind than almost anything. But, I love the comments and am interested in how my blog is found.

I think that later today, I am going to start adding my advice to younger generations. If you have something to add to it, leave me a comment. If I agree, you will probably see it in the future when I post more advice. I'll probably also add it to my off-line list on which I'm drawing my advice.

Well, that's all I have for this post. See you next post!


Monday, July 2, 2007

I'm Dreaming A Little Dream

The past two nights, I've had dreams about me living with my mother. This is odd because I'm not talking to my mother (mostly for my peace of mind). In my dreams my mother didn't really say anything. I have no intention of ever moving back in with my mother, so these dreams are odd.

Ace and I are back into our two week (or longer) wait to find out if we've accomplished pregnancy this month. Since we have to wait, we are cleaning house and making plans for things to do to keep us busy while we wait. And, of course, we will continue to have sex, because that is just fun. Today, I have cleaned bathrooms, which was a slightly big task.

Okay, I've run out of things to say for now. I guess that should indicate that I'm done.